yes, i feel stressed everytime wj brings up the fact that i need to make a firm stand against my mum... he wants to noe how committed i am to it, and even questions me hypothetically, which can frustrate me so much that i just dun want to tok to him... yes, call me weak watever... but i do wan to mend my relationship with my mum... its so hard as it is already, and he doesnt understand it... he claims he does, which i say to myself "u're nt even me...how would u noe..."
yes, she will lose her temper if i go out often, and i do wan to avoid that... u noe why? because i'm afraid for myself, afraid that i will lose my own temper and become so emotional and irrational... who noes i mite do things that i will later regret... till i can successfully understand her and tok to her in a calm and rational way, i do not want to affect the status quo...
yes, wj pushes me to the edge, he wants me to step out to the unknown, watever... i can only say i will try... whenever i become angry, i will pray... it helps cos i cast all my cares and worries to God, i noe God will take care of it... anyways, i hope our relationship will not be affected by my negative emotions, wj understands (with fingers crossed)
of course, i wont expect him to agree with me praying to get out of situations... he mite even think me foolish... but its abt me and God and no one else..
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