apparently my client called me to say she deleted a entry from GL, which was coming from AR. just like that!!?? according to her the amount was suspicious and had nothing to do with her transactions.... my guess is actually she did not look into the entry and brashly deleted just because the figure doesn match! she shd have called me b4 doing anything, especially when she isnt particularly good at double entries.. !!
now i just need to call her and prove my fears correct, that her GL and AR is not matching!! and to find out the entry that she deleted... oh my gosh, i'm so not looking forward to that process.... sigh*
~moral of the story: DO NOT delete anything u're not sure, and always drill down to look at the transactions first, understand the process system b4 u touch anything!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
gian's bb girl
yupz, today Gian showed us a video of her baby girl, oh she's so cute! She looks so much like Gian, as wat vince said, "of course la! is from the same factory ma!" LOL
the joy was simply indescribable in the pictures, esp the proud smiles of the parents...
then nancy mentioned abt remembering wat i said, "noella, u said u wanted to marry and have a child, haha!"
I reply, "yea, haha, but still long la..."
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nuff said...
the joy was simply indescribable in the pictures, esp the proud smiles of the parents...
then nancy mentioned abt remembering wat i said, "noella, u said u wanted to marry and have a child, haha!"
I reply, "yea, haha, but still long la..."
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nuff said...
你的原因，我的原因
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是啦，你的原因差不多全对，而我的原因差不多都只是借口。对你来说，我只是无理取闹，刁蛮任性。
唉，有时候，我有点厌倦，想起自己的理想情人。你的确离我的理想蛮遥远的，可是我觉得和你在一起是很快乐的。所以及时我觉得多厌倦，我还是很珍惜我们之间的感情！
好了，我不想在说了。。。终至我也有我的原因。。。
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是啦，你的原因差不多全对，而我的原因差不多都只是借口。对你来说，我只是无理取闹，刁蛮任性。
唉，有时候，我有点厌倦，想起自己的理想情人。你的确离我的理想蛮遥远的，可是我觉得和你在一起是很快乐的。所以及时我觉得多厌倦，我还是很珍惜我们之间的感情！
好了，我不想在说了。。。终至我也有我的原因。。。
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stubbornness and something else
yes, i am as stubborn as u... u are the reasonable one, while i'm often not... i guess it all runs in the girl gene... anyways, ur students can change their tuition schedule anytime, and it may cause u to need to postpone some of ur personal stuff(if u have any), this is also unreasonable... especially if it is so last min... does it mean that because it affects their household, they can just simply get away with it... don u have ur own commitments as well, unless, those commitments are non-existent...
anyways, i too, want to do certain things, i do not have to stick to u every day, even if i do miss u... we all need some personal space, even if u dun agree...
today, u showed ur irritation becos i did not wan u to switch channel.. i was watching a taiwanese entertainment show, which u dun like at all... (i'm thinking is because u dun understand it, and u dun find it enjoyable because u're prob thinking that they're trashy, but i do like it!) and i'm already foreseeing that we'll have numerous quarrels over the choice of tv shows.... sigh... which leads me to upsets abt our vast differences...
*tsk... i dunno... seriously.... wat can be done...?
example would be, if u have a show u wanted to watch, and i have a show at that time too, it gets worse if we only have one tv... but if we have 2 then problem solved... but..... if u insists on having my company, then i noe i'm gonna get pissed, becos i'm gonna miss my show... on the other hand, if i insists on ur company(which i dun think will happen cos im finally going to let go off the fact that ure nvr gonna appreciate watever chinese show i like), then ure gonna be irritated and resentful...
i guess the best possible way ard this prob would be to leave each other alone then, considered personal time... (will that happen? cos wj, u have said that u would not leave me to watch tv alone...) sighs........
so thats y i would prefer my other half to share more common interests with me... but.... its too late for that.... one could only wish........
anyways, i too, want to do certain things, i do not have to stick to u every day, even if i do miss u... we all need some personal space, even if u dun agree...
today, u showed ur irritation becos i did not wan u to switch channel.. i was watching a taiwanese entertainment show, which u dun like at all... (i'm thinking is because u dun understand it, and u dun find it enjoyable because u're prob thinking that they're trashy, but i do like it!) and i'm already foreseeing that we'll have numerous quarrels over the choice of tv shows.... sigh... which leads me to upsets abt our vast differences...
*tsk... i dunno... seriously.... wat can be done...?
example would be, if u have a show u wanted to watch, and i have a show at that time too, it gets worse if we only have one tv... but if we have 2 then problem solved... but..... if u insists on having my company, then i noe i'm gonna get pissed, becos i'm gonna miss my show... on the other hand, if i insists on ur company(which i dun think will happen cos im finally going to let go off the fact that ure nvr gonna appreciate watever chinese show i like), then ure gonna be irritated and resentful...
i guess the best possible way ard this prob would be to leave each other alone then, considered personal time... (will that happen? cos wj, u have said that u would not leave me to watch tv alone...) sighs........
so thats y i would prefer my other half to share more common interests with me... but.... its too late for that.... one could only wish........
pines dinner
today i had two first times... one is first time eating teppanyaki, seeing the chef doing all the frying, and second is first time eating goose liver!
yea, it was nice looking at how the chef cooked the food, all the funny antics, and of course i did learn some stuff on the sly haha! it was very entertaining and i didn ever laugh so much over a meal in my entire 22 n half years of my life... plus i was pretty high on sake... so yup, u can imagine...
and the goose liver... seriously i've nvr ever liked liver of any animal, (duck/pig/cow)... when i heard that the first dish the chef was preparing was goose liver, i was close to saying damn out loud, luckily i didn... the dish looked really good, and i was psycho-ing myself to try it, and wj said i shd also... and so i bravely took the first bite.... *ooh! it was good!!! because it didnt taste very liver-ish, i actually liked it, plus the way the chef cooked it with the sauce... *mmm... thats all i can think of in my mind... LOL!
the rest of the dishes were fantastic beyond words! the salmon, the beef, the big prawn,the oyster egg, walala!! thinking back to those were so good!!!!
a pity i'm nt the camera toting kind of girl, otherwise i could have taken pics of the dishes and loaded them to this blog(once i do noe how to do it that is!)
yea, it was all in all, a great great GREAT dinner, thanks to wj's uncle! 3 cheers!!!
yea, it was nice looking at how the chef cooked the food, all the funny antics, and of course i did learn some stuff on the sly haha! it was very entertaining and i didn ever laugh so much over a meal in my entire 22 n half years of my life... plus i was pretty high on sake... so yup, u can imagine...
and the goose liver... seriously i've nvr ever liked liver of any animal, (duck/pig/cow)... when i heard that the first dish the chef was preparing was goose liver, i was close to saying damn out loud, luckily i didn... the dish looked really good, and i was psycho-ing myself to try it, and wj said i shd also... and so i bravely took the first bite.... *ooh! it was good!!! because it didnt taste very liver-ish, i actually liked it, plus the way the chef cooked it with the sauce... *mmm... thats all i can think of in my mind... LOL!
the rest of the dishes were fantastic beyond words! the salmon, the beef, the big prawn,the oyster egg, walala!! thinking back to those were so good!!!!
a pity i'm nt the camera toting kind of girl, otherwise i could have taken pics of the dishes and loaded them to this blog(once i do noe how to do it that is!)
yea, it was all in all, a great great GREAT dinner, thanks to wj's uncle! 3 cheers!!!
Friday, June 26, 2009
expressing urself thru watever means
yes, wj wants to noe how to sing, and he's upset he cant sing... u noe wat i think? i think everyone can sing, just open ur mouth and let ur song out... there's only the difference between singing and singing WELL...
he wants to sing well, and he wants ppl to appreciate his singing, that is the truth of the matter, nt that he cant sing! the only ppl who cant sing are the physically challenged, they cant even speak for that matter!!
i noe he really appreciates that i can sing, but he doesn realise that i, too also appreciate his abilities, and sometimes get upset that i cant do it? he can create stuff, write stuff, is a deep thinker who is really mature abt all kinds of issues, has his own opinions abt things... i wish to be like that too, but i noe, i cant! cos we all have our limitations/weaknesses. We are God's creation and i think God does not wan everyone to be similar to everyone, machiam like some factory manufacturing.
i'm thinking if everyone is perfect in watever they want, wat will the world be like?? i think there could be more rivalries, more conflicts because ppl noe that they are perfect, they have every skill that they need, so why shd i let u win or let u get that coveted position in the organization? (something along those lines...)
because of ppl's limitations, there is a flurry of different activities, ranging from road-sweeping, cleaning, odd job labouring, construction, to art drawing, dancing, musicians etc.. because ppl have to live with their limitations, and make use of their strengths!
do not think that just because they are considered lowly kind of jobs, they can be looked down upon... can u imagine a world without cleaners??? we will need to pick up after ourselves and be more responsible for our actions like littering! our place cannot be as conducive for a living environment!
so back to the "sad" issue of not being able to express urself, to me that is quite bull... i noe i cant write well, but yet i'm writing in this blog, abeit expressing myself badly, but i dun give a damn...
i'm writing out watever is in my mind, and u noe my mind is nvr organised. it jumps from one pt to another, with nothing to link each other..
the fact is only expressing urself to get ppl's appreciation is the point... its nvr abt the point of "oh i cant express myself through this/that." wanting ppl to appreciate u is perhaps one of the hardest things, coming from me who often feels unappreciated by ppl ard (besides wj). at certain times when i think back, i feel so hurt and pained, sadness washes over me like some tsunami.... but i also get over it quickly, especially after a cry.... or i will self talk myself out of it...
SO, self talk is very impt, and is as crucial as discovering ur strengths and making full use of them... or so i'm hoping i can develop, I WILL!
he wants to sing well, and he wants ppl to appreciate his singing, that is the truth of the matter, nt that he cant sing! the only ppl who cant sing are the physically challenged, they cant even speak for that matter!!
i noe he really appreciates that i can sing, but he doesn realise that i, too also appreciate his abilities, and sometimes get upset that i cant do it? he can create stuff, write stuff, is a deep thinker who is really mature abt all kinds of issues, has his own opinions abt things... i wish to be like that too, but i noe, i cant! cos we all have our limitations/weaknesses. We are God's creation and i think God does not wan everyone to be similar to everyone, machiam like some factory manufacturing.
i'm thinking if everyone is perfect in watever they want, wat will the world be like?? i think there could be more rivalries, more conflicts because ppl noe that they are perfect, they have every skill that they need, so why shd i let u win or let u get that coveted position in the organization? (something along those lines...)
because of ppl's limitations, there is a flurry of different activities, ranging from road-sweeping, cleaning, odd job labouring, construction, to art drawing, dancing, musicians etc.. because ppl have to live with their limitations, and make use of their strengths!
do not think that just because they are considered lowly kind of jobs, they can be looked down upon... can u imagine a world without cleaners??? we will need to pick up after ourselves and be more responsible for our actions like littering! our place cannot be as conducive for a living environment!
so back to the "sad" issue of not being able to express urself, to me that is quite bull... i noe i cant write well, but yet i'm writing in this blog, abeit expressing myself badly, but i dun give a damn...
i'm writing out watever is in my mind, and u noe my mind is nvr organised. it jumps from one pt to another, with nothing to link each other..
the fact is only expressing urself to get ppl's appreciation is the point... its nvr abt the point of "oh i cant express myself through this/that." wanting ppl to appreciate u is perhaps one of the hardest things, coming from me who often feels unappreciated by ppl ard (besides wj). at certain times when i think back, i feel so hurt and pained, sadness washes over me like some tsunami.... but i also get over it quickly, especially after a cry.... or i will self talk myself out of it...
SO, self talk is very impt, and is as crucial as discovering ur strengths and making full use of them... or so i'm hoping i can develop, I WILL!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
each have each set of problems
yea, u look at any famous stars, u can see that on the surface, they are all glitzy, elegant, fun etc..
u long to be like them, always having opportunities to beautify themselves, to do acting and hosting, especially travel shows where they get to enjoy different countries' scenery, foods, culture and so on... u see on tv that they go to all the exotic places u can ever dream of, wow! fantastic huh?
but deep down, these famous stars can be just tired souls, overworked to be overpaid, and no time to actually sit down to enjoying their vast amounts of wealth... worse, whoever they go out with, rumours will spread like wildfire, something innocent can become toxic.. the amount of pressures they have to put up with to shield themselves from the media glare can be so insurmountable, no wonder some stars can injure themselves, suffer from depression, get hooked on drugs or even committing suicide!
so, we can dream of becoming famous stars enjoying the high life, but we also should noe that they may wan to be "normal" like us too... 所以羡慕是羡慕不来的！
u long to be like them, always having opportunities to beautify themselves, to do acting and hosting, especially travel shows where they get to enjoy different countries' scenery, foods, culture and so on... u see on tv that they go to all the exotic places u can ever dream of, wow! fantastic huh?
but deep down, these famous stars can be just tired souls, overworked to be overpaid, and no time to actually sit down to enjoying their vast amounts of wealth... worse, whoever they go out with, rumours will spread like wildfire, something innocent can become toxic.. the amount of pressures they have to put up with to shield themselves from the media glare can be so insurmountable, no wonder some stars can injure themselves, suffer from depression, get hooked on drugs or even committing suicide!
so, we can dream of becoming famous stars enjoying the high life, but we also should noe that they may wan to be "normal" like us too... 所以羡慕是羡慕不来的！
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
篮球的位置
篮球的五个位置分别是：小前锋（SF），大前锋（PF），中锋（C），控球后卫（PG）和得分后卫（SG）。
我个人蛮喜欢控球后卫。可能是因为我渴望有那种快的步伐，目光尖锐得能看到其他人在球场上的位置，并且准确的传球给那个人， 这种特质。
另外，我也欣赏小前锋。因为 he is the most well-rounded and versatile player and can alternate between the roles as and when the need arises. （haha, abit hard to describe in chinese!)
篮球火加上我男友的最爱让我产生了点儿兴趣。哈哈！
我个人蛮喜欢控球后卫。可能是因为我渴望有那种快的步伐，目光尖锐得能看到其他人在球场上的位置，并且准确的传球给那个人， 这种特质。
另外，我也欣赏小前锋。因为 he is the most well-rounded and versatile player and can alternate between the roles as and when the need arises. （haha, abit hard to describe in chinese!)
篮球火加上我男友的最爱让我产生了点儿兴趣。哈哈！
Monday, June 22, 2009
言唉言。。。。
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为何要这么执著？还不都是一样。。。
SQL 也好，pervasive 也好，目的就是要系统操作正常。
况且训练的时候，她都不用知道setup 是怎么样做的。
真是奇怪了！
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今天找到吴尊和蒋仪的布落格，不错！！
吴尊长得实在太完美了，蒋仪也蛮标准。。。
我真的还蛮欣赏他们俩的。
哈哈！
为何要这么执著？还不都是一样。。。
SQL 也好，pervasive 也好，目的就是要系统操作正常。
况且训练的时候，她都不用知道setup 是怎么样做的。
真是奇怪了！
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今天找到吴尊和蒋仪的布落格，不错！！
吴尊长得实在太完美了，蒋仪也蛮标准。。。
我真的还蛮欣赏他们俩的。
哈哈！
getting in touch...
yes, i'm getting in touch with the self that expresses in chinese, it has been ages since i last wrote in that language! i found it easier to say wat i'm feeling, to express myself in chinese... think thats my specialty....
ppl do not noe i'm very good in chinese, simply because i cant speak it well... sometimes i find it strange, why is it that i cant speak out wat i think? its as if there is some kind of traffic congestion between my brain and my mouth, but nt between my brain and hand haha!
anyways, i would really like to alternate between chinese and english, so wj if ure reading this, u can skip those entries.. firstly u mite not noe how to read, or even if u do, u prob dun noe wat i mean... so yea haha! :D
ppl do not noe i'm very good in chinese, simply because i cant speak it well... sometimes i find it strange, why is it that i cant speak out wat i think? its as if there is some kind of traffic congestion between my brain and my mouth, but nt between my brain and hand haha!
anyways, i would really like to alternate between chinese and english, so wj if ure reading this, u can skip those entries.. firstly u mite not noe how to read, or even if u do, u prob dun noe wat i mean... so yea haha! :D
常言道。。。+故事
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是的，谁没有自私的时候呢？你说我自私，只想着自己的不便，但你何尝有想过？
你要我照你的话去做，你就不自私吗？
你觉得自己的方法是最好的，难道其他人的想法就可以至之不理吗？
我就是要选择自己的路。
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我想要大鹰和W 的最后结果
就是他们可以快乐的在一起
不管教练-学员的关系
不管高度的关系
也不管W的病情恶化。
W实现了篮球梦，更有爱情的滋纴
所以她的病奇迹般的康复了！
大鹰发现自己并非爱洁儿，
他心里是有W的！
因为W 每一次都在他难过的时候在他的身边。
是的，W 和大鹰相恋了！！
是的，谁没有自私的时候呢？你说我自私，只想着自己的不便，但你何尝有想过？
你要我照你的话去做，你就不自私吗？
你觉得自己的方法是最好的，难道其他人的想法就可以至之不理吗？
我就是要选择自己的路。
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我想要大鹰和W 的最后结果
就是他们可以快乐的在一起
不管教练-学员的关系
不管高度的关系
也不管W的病情恶化。
W实现了篮球梦，更有爱情的滋纴
所以她的病奇迹般的康复了！
大鹰发现自己并非爱洁儿，
他心里是有W的！
因为W 每一次都在他难过的时候在他的身边。
是的，W 和大鹰相恋了！！
Sunday, June 21, 2009
hooked on different dramas
now i'm rewatching dou niu yao bu yao again.. haha! i was bored at home on sat, had originally wanted to surf the internet for youtube videos.. but... i just couldn connect to my home wireless... so... i had to settle to rewatch the dramas i have in my hard-drive...
shen ruohe is so shuai la! haha, and he looks a cute couple with yi sheng xue, LOL... the funny moments they have, and the love they developed is quite touching also, plus some dou niu scenes which are uber cool, hehe!
anyways i tried to ask wj to watch it with me... and... ya failed... he only can accept nodame, which to me is also the same type of drama i watch... not much difference.. anyways its prob the theme and language... chi language prob turns him off already... esp if there isnt subtitles (i also watched a taiwanese variety ep in youtube, apparently he had a hard time understanding, and so it didn amuse him as much as it did for me.. but... in the drama there was...)... and thematically there's not so much basketball to interest him.... so ya...
hai, why do i need him to enjoy anyways? cant i just enjoy on my own..? independence, independence... sharing the enjoyment i have is nt an option with someone almost entirely opposite from u... other things can share... ha...
anyways, i can love the drama on my own, swoon over the love stories of the characters, be obsessed with the OST etc... and no one need to noe or comment that i'm siao watever...
its just me and totally me.... hmm... good idea... so i shant "force" wj to watch dramas with me anymore...
shen ruohe is so shuai la! haha, and he looks a cute couple with yi sheng xue, LOL... the funny moments they have, and the love they developed is quite touching also, plus some dou niu scenes which are uber cool, hehe!
anyways i tried to ask wj to watch it with me... and... ya failed... he only can accept nodame, which to me is also the same type of drama i watch... not much difference.. anyways its prob the theme and language... chi language prob turns him off already... esp if there isnt subtitles (i also watched a taiwanese variety ep in youtube, apparently he had a hard time understanding, and so it didn amuse him as much as it did for me.. but... in the drama there was...)... and thematically there's not so much basketball to interest him.... so ya...
hai, why do i need him to enjoy anyways? cant i just enjoy on my own..? independence, independence... sharing the enjoyment i have is nt an option with someone almost entirely opposite from u... other things can share... ha...
anyways, i can love the drama on my own, swoon over the love stories of the characters, be obsessed with the OST etc... and no one need to noe or comment that i'm siao watever...
its just me and totally me.... hmm... good idea... so i shant "force" wj to watch dramas with me anymore...
Thursday, June 18, 2009
shangrila lunch
woo~ i had the most luxurious lunch, haha! to be more specific it was at shangrila...
after my wonderful pack of lies to almost everyone, i took a cab down and was welcomed by a hotel usher or bellboy whichever fits...
wow! machiam i'm some kind of rich taitai going for some lunch or something... LOL
i really enjoyed the dishes even though the variety was not fantastic, but the atmosphere was great! having a cup of tea with many flavoured flowers or fruits, and then enjoying the sashimi and the cakes, mmmm.... must thank wj's parents for tis opportunity.. haha!
while i was eating, i was also dreamy abt the hotel rooms... so flowery and close to nature, its so super nice! too bad there wasn much to walk ard, unlike raffles hotel, got some small shops there (from wat i can remember) but the reception area is still really elegant-looking, with the huge chandeliers thing hanging down...
wah la, how many times can one step into such a grand place?? perhaps once or even never...
after my wonderful pack of lies to almost everyone, i took a cab down and was welcomed by a hotel usher or bellboy whichever fits...
wow! machiam i'm some kind of rich taitai going for some lunch or something... LOL
i really enjoyed the dishes even though the variety was not fantastic, but the atmosphere was great! having a cup of tea with many flavoured flowers or fruits, and then enjoying the sashimi and the cakes, mmmm.... must thank wj's parents for tis opportunity.. haha!
while i was eating, i was also dreamy abt the hotel rooms... so flowery and close to nature, its so super nice! too bad there wasn much to walk ard, unlike raffles hotel, got some small shops there (from wat i can remember) but the reception area is still really elegant-looking, with the huge chandeliers thing hanging down...
wah la, how many times can one step into such a grand place?? perhaps once or even never...
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
so sick last nite
yea, after so much anger and tears with extreme sniffling, i felt horribly sick last nite with a throbbing headache... i went to the toilet and also puked, nothing came out.. only air..
then i couldn go bac to sleep because of the pain, when i finally did, i was awoken by the sweet melody of my alarm... Thank God the headache was gone, but my eyes were superbly sleepy... i had to force myself to go and wash up b4 work...
i dun care, later i'm going to have some sleep...
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wat got me so riled up last nite was wj's attitude, and he says its my fault, yea yea is my black moody face he doesn like...
wat he doesn noe (and i dun need him or anyone else to noe) is that i've gotten better after awhile and even better after my dinner, plus the fact that i prayed and i could feel my anger disappear. but he had to refuse to tok to me when i went up. i did not want to feel angry so i decided to take my stuff and leave.
he had to call me and command me to go up and even said he was controlling his temper/violence. That kinda shook me up and started me thinking will he hit me in the future when we are married... i then smsed him and then consequently went up. i was so pissed off, i could feel myself hating him to the core..
i just let fly my rage and shouted at him, the emotion and tears that burst out kinda surprised me when i think bac on this incident. anyways, the whole issue was eventually resolved. but at the cost of my well-being... i really dun wan to be so emotional till i get sick...
yeah, i guess my condescending tone is to blame.... even though it doesn necessarily reflect my actual emotion, no one else could possibly noe, except me and God. so yesh, even if the whole world hates me, should i even give a damn?
ya, fine, i will zip my mouth the next time... and let ppl's misunderstanding of me snowball... i will still hopefully tok in a calm tone (even if ppl dun think so) i dun see the point of trying to convince others about hw i'm feeling or how i should feel... especially from the ppl closest to me... think of me whichever way, as long as i noe i'm nt feeling that way then its fine... God only noes and loves me entirely for who i am, i believe he doesn even get angry with me for being moody... simply because i'm his beautiful creation... Amen to that!
then i couldn go bac to sleep because of the pain, when i finally did, i was awoken by the sweet melody of my alarm... Thank God the headache was gone, but my eyes were superbly sleepy... i had to force myself to go and wash up b4 work...
i dun care, later i'm going to have some sleep...
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wat got me so riled up last nite was wj's attitude, and he says its my fault, yea yea is my black moody face he doesn like...
wat he doesn noe (and i dun need him or anyone else to noe) is that i've gotten better after awhile and even better after my dinner, plus the fact that i prayed and i could feel my anger disappear. but he had to refuse to tok to me when i went up. i did not want to feel angry so i decided to take my stuff and leave.
he had to call me and command me to go up and even said he was controlling his temper/violence. That kinda shook me up and started me thinking will he hit me in the future when we are married... i then smsed him and then consequently went up. i was so pissed off, i could feel myself hating him to the core..
i just let fly my rage and shouted at him, the emotion and tears that burst out kinda surprised me when i think bac on this incident. anyways, the whole issue was eventually resolved. but at the cost of my well-being... i really dun wan to be so emotional till i get sick...
yeah, i guess my condescending tone is to blame.... even though it doesn necessarily reflect my actual emotion, no one else could possibly noe, except me and God. so yesh, even if the whole world hates me, should i even give a damn?
ya, fine, i will zip my mouth the next time... and let ppl's misunderstanding of me snowball... i will still hopefully tok in a calm tone (even if ppl dun think so) i dun see the point of trying to convince others about hw i'm feeling or how i should feel... especially from the ppl closest to me... think of me whichever way, as long as i noe i'm nt feeling that way then its fine... God only noes and loves me entirely for who i am, i believe he doesn even get angry with me for being moody... simply because i'm his beautiful creation... Amen to that!
Monday, June 15, 2009
ended up not going anywhere
too bad, i wanted to see the china office, heard that it is very nice... but then vince said didn need so many ppl to go down to do the installation and plus there was some unhappiness going on, something abt miscommunication on the delivery of the hardware (along those lines...)
and..............
karen said that the QMT project dun need us to go down for the discussion also... damn, i had seriously wanted to listen, cos frankly speaking, if i were to implement the project next time, i need to noe wat i shd discuss... if only lim could bring a voice recorder along or something.. hah!
yea, so i'm in the office typing away.... and trying out crystal...again...
and..............
karen said that the QMT project dun need us to go down for the discussion also... damn, i had seriously wanted to listen, cos frankly speaking, if i were to implement the project next time, i need to noe wat i shd discuss... if only lim could bring a voice recorder along or something.. hah!
yea, so i'm in the office typing away.... and trying out crystal...again...
Sunday, June 14, 2009
tomoro's installation at china + chaotic thoughts....
haha, tomoro going down with karen and lim to install MSSQL, finally get to see how this is done! so now i'm gonna get down to studying the intricacies... yawn... i stilllllll prefer pervasive...
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ignored,
not knowing wat to say,
i can only sit in a corner,
observing,
wondering,
thinking,
is this true,
that i'm disliked,
despised,
unwanted
God forbid
wat am i really thinking?
wat if i am despised by almost everyone,
does it even matter?
as long as i'm happy,
with myself, with the world
at peace in Christ
nothing else should matter,
absolutely nothing
People's opinion?
sheer nonsense?
gossip?
i will say this is purely humbug
to change myself for the world
to lose oneself in the pursuit of
getting most people's understanding,
indeed total foolishness!
at the end of it all,
me, myself and only i
will suffer,
and for the sake of wat?
nothing.
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ignored,
not knowing wat to say,
i can only sit in a corner,
observing,
wondering,
thinking,
is this true,
that i'm disliked,
despised,
unwanted
God forbid
wat am i really thinking?
wat if i am despised by almost everyone,
does it even matter?
as long as i'm happy,
with myself, with the world
at peace in Christ
nothing else should matter,
absolutely nothing
People's opinion?
sheer nonsense?
gossip?
i will say this is purely humbug
to change myself for the world
to lose oneself in the pursuit of
getting most people's understanding,
indeed total foolishness!
at the end of it all,
me, myself and only i
will suffer,
and for the sake of wat?
nothing.
Friday, June 12, 2009
i'm hooked to the hotshot OST
in slight continuation to my earlier entry, while i was doing excel, i was also listening to the hotshot OST... absolutely the whole day cos i kept repeating it... dunno why, but i can really not be sick of the music... haha! reminds me of a fren who also has this habit, except hers is slightly more extreme, she can listen for that one song for the whole day.... (at least the OST has 13 songs haha!)
actually its also one of my quirky habits, if i really love the drama, i will also love the drama OST.. and i mean absolutely loving it, can repeat it many many times on my player.. haha! at least till i FINALLY grow tired of it or become interested in new dramas... hehe! (now as i'm typing away on this entry, i'm still listening... "yea i am superman... yea you're the loser...")
i guess the reason why i'm so hooked to drama OSTs is cos i can relate to the songs, when the particular song plays, the scene also replays in my mind :) especially the romantic touching kind of scenes... haha!
think wj will go mad, if i keep playing the same kind of music!! haha, so this will be my private affair btw me and my music player... muahahahha
actually its also one of my quirky habits, if i really love the drama, i will also love the drama OST.. and i mean absolutely loving it, can repeat it many many times on my player.. haha! at least till i FINALLY grow tired of it or become interested in new dramas... hehe! (now as i'm typing away on this entry, i'm still listening... "yea i am superman... yea you're the loser...")
i guess the reason why i'm so hooked to drama OSTs is cos i can relate to the songs, when the particular song plays, the scene also replays in my mind :) especially the romantic touching kind of scenes... haha!
think wj will go mad, if i keep playing the same kind of music!! haha, so this will be my private affair btw me and my music player... muahahahha
the irritant of financial reports
i was busy for the last 2 days because of financial reports, busy formatting in excel so that when they are run, they can display the figures according to the person's request. oh my gosh, just think, yest i was doing it the whole day at the client's office, and today another full day in my own office, thank God for teamviewer! after i'm done checking the formats, i finally sent them over and saved in their server!
imagine, they have 9 companies and each company has at least 3 reports! i have formatted at least 27 reports for them, really phenomenal man! All by myself with no help from my senior (besides when i asked thye how to fix the format), great! so now, im taking a break and writing this entry... and waiting to meet up with wj later...
tomoro is another day of learning, asset management module...
imagine, they have 9 companies and each company has at least 3 reports! i have formatted at least 27 reports for them, really phenomenal man! All by myself with no help from my senior (besides when i asked thye how to fix the format), great! so now, im taking a break and writing this entry... and waiting to meet up with wj later...
tomoro is another day of learning, asset management module...
Monday, June 8, 2009
wj coming bac today + my unhappiness with the messy...
yea, today wj is coming bac from phuket :) wonder if he got anything for me, food also good! haha!
anyways, today i'm going down to tanjong pagar again, to try and complete the training.. apparently i regretted volunteering to go down there with my senior... the training was so brief that it mite as well not have been carried out, plus the fact that there is lots of interruptions coming from phone calls, emails, msn etc.... it was one of my worst training sessions!
i very much prefer a proper full day training, whereby i can go through the whole structure and flow so as not to miss out any impt thing... hai... oh well, i just need to adapt to that lady who will most prob call in often anyways... so yea....
anyways, today i'm going down to tanjong pagar again, to try and complete the training.. apparently i regretted volunteering to go down there with my senior... the training was so brief that it mite as well not have been carried out, plus the fact that there is lots of interruptions coming from phone calls, emails, msn etc.... it was one of my worst training sessions!
i very much prefer a proper full day training, whereby i can go through the whole structure and flow so as not to miss out any impt thing... hai... oh well, i just need to adapt to that lady who will most prob call in often anyways... so yea....
Sunday, June 7, 2009
hotshot - the power of love....
i'm hooked to the series hotshot. The thing that touches me most is the love btw the characters. this girl jie-er, grew to love basketball because of this guy dong fang xiang and apparently because of the differences in their status (servant and master), she finds it hard to spend time with him given the pressures... and she trained hard in street bball enduring the jeers from guys and pains of violent play for quite some years so that she becomes the masked companion of dong fang xiang... then comes this yuan da ying who loves her so much that he willingly becomes a human cushion for dong fang xiang's violent nemesis.... this triangular love really hooked me... haha (of course wj will think that love is so over-rated in dramas, but i dun care... i sucker for these!)
not only is the love, but also the lame humour that i like... haha... yuan da ying is so arrogant in his speech often saying "ben da ye" aka the Great Me... but deep down he noes that he's not that good in talent...that is until he develops to his full potential...
overall, its a good drama for girls, wanting to look at cute guys and for guys to oogle at the female bball instructor with the long legs.. haha!
not only is the love, but also the lame humour that i like... haha... yuan da ying is so arrogant in his speech often saying "ben da ye" aka the Great Me... but deep down he noes that he's not that good in talent...that is until he develops to his full potential...
overall, its a good drama for girls, wanting to look at cute guys and for guys to oogle at the female bball instructor with the long legs.. haha!
Thursday, June 4, 2009
marriage and starting a family
i guess, since i'm at this topic, i mite as well expand on my idea of wat it means to be married..
to me, married is quite a huge transition in life, y do i say that? its because u suddenly let a person into ur life, nt as a bf/gf but as a spouse, who will live with u and do most things with u.... this can become an obstacle if u discover that ur longtime partner absolutely differs from ur idea of a spouse... for eg. u cannot do anything u like or watever u like whenever u like cos ur spouse mite not like it... u hav to start considering his/her feelings.. arguments may start and then the whole marriage mite start to go downhill from there... also when u decide/ not decide to have a kid, the responsibilities just pile up!
yes, wj says marriage is but a piece of paper, but i still think...u have to be mentally prepared...
to me, married is quite a huge transition in life, y do i say that? its because u suddenly let a person into ur life, nt as a bf/gf but as a spouse, who will live with u and do most things with u.... this can become an obstacle if u discover that ur longtime partner absolutely differs from ur idea of a spouse... for eg. u cannot do anything u like or watever u like whenever u like cos ur spouse mite not like it... u hav to start considering his/her feelings.. arguments may start and then the whole marriage mite start to go downhill from there... also when u decide/ not decide to have a kid, the responsibilities just pile up!
yes, wj says marriage is but a piece of paper, but i still think...u have to be mentally prepared...
old peoples.........
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As one gets old, the natural things start coming in, forgetfulness, naggyness, insecurities, worries, physical manifestations like illnesses and wrinkles and so on...
yes, when one gets old, one will reminisce about their past, how fun and energetic they were when they were kids, going out to play and getting into all kinds of mischief... but they never say they enjoy old age, never been happy and always griping about their aches and pains...
no wonder, everyone fears aging and tries every way and means to stay young, look youthful etc.
although i'm only in my early 20s, i feel that age is catching up... suddenly i hear of frens stepping into the next milestone of their lives, either getting married or being a mum!
wow i think to myself, i feel that i haven even grown up mentally, although physically am already there... time just flies..... wat will i feel when i step into the next milestone? how can i manage all the responsibilities of a household when i'm still like a kid myself?
somehow, maybe.... i'll suddenly grow up when i'm married and have a kid of my own... sometimes, its all in the hormones.... or sometimes, circumstances force us to become "stronger"
in character because of the added responsibilities... or mayb its also the power of LOVE... because you love ur partner and ur child, u will protect and care for them as much as possible...
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yup, just some innermost thoughts, however jumbled...
As one gets old, the natural things start coming in, forgetfulness, naggyness, insecurities, worries, physical manifestations like illnesses and wrinkles and so on...
yes, when one gets old, one will reminisce about their past, how fun and energetic they were when they were kids, going out to play and getting into all kinds of mischief... but they never say they enjoy old age, never been happy and always griping about their aches and pains...
no wonder, everyone fears aging and tries every way and means to stay young, look youthful etc.
although i'm only in my early 20s, i feel that age is catching up... suddenly i hear of frens stepping into the next milestone of their lives, either getting married or being a mum!
wow i think to myself, i feel that i haven even grown up mentally, although physically am already there... time just flies..... wat will i feel when i step into the next milestone? how can i manage all the responsibilities of a household when i'm still like a kid myself?
somehow, maybe.... i'll suddenly grow up when i'm married and have a kid of my own... sometimes, its all in the hormones.... or sometimes, circumstances force us to become "stronger"
in character because of the added responsibilities... or mayb its also the power of LOVE... because you love ur partner and ur child, u will protect and care for them as much as possible...
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yup, just some innermost thoughts, however jumbled...
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
the wonder abt one of the world's greatest inventions...
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the computer,
one of the world's greatest inventions
is but one logical mess,
programming, settings,
and all the fuss,
to make it work out
calculations upon calculations
statistics with statistics
and many more
also but one stupid mess,
if any command goes wrong
everything caves in
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yeah, just because of certain settings, a program fails to work on the all wonderful pc... administrator rights and the like, windows firewall, antivirus software that blocks almost everything suspicious even seemingly useful programs etc. makes the pc look like the world's stupidest invention ever... Grr....
apparently i was having problems with accpac when i did remote connection... thus goes the frustration with IT into this entry...
the computer,
one of the world's greatest inventions
is but one logical mess,
programming, settings,
and all the fuss,
to make it work out
calculations upon calculations
statistics with statistics
and many more
also but one stupid mess,
if any command goes wrong
everything caves in
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yeah, just because of certain settings, a program fails to work on the all wonderful pc... administrator rights and the like, windows firewall, antivirus software that blocks almost everything suspicious even seemingly useful programs etc. makes the pc look like the world's stupidest invention ever... Grr....
apparently i was having problems with accpac when i did remote connection... thus goes the frustration with IT into this entry...
additional stress
yes, i feel stressed everytime wj brings up the fact that i need to make a firm stand against my mum... he wants to noe how committed i am to it, and even questions me hypothetically, which can frustrate me so much that i just dun want to tok to him... yes, call me weak watever... but i do wan to mend my relationship with my mum... its so hard as it is already, and he doesnt understand it... he claims he does, which i say to myself "u're nt even me...how would u noe..."
yes, she will lose her temper if i go out often, and i do wan to avoid that... u noe why? because i'm afraid for myself, afraid that i will lose my own temper and become so emotional and irrational... who noes i mite do things that i will later regret... till i can successfully understand her and tok to her in a calm and rational way, i do not want to affect the status quo...
yes, wj pushes me to the edge, he wants me to step out to the unknown, watever... i can only say i will try... whenever i become angry, i will pray... it helps cos i cast all my cares and worries to God, i noe God will take care of it... anyways, i hope our relationship will not be affected by my negative emotions, wj understands (with fingers crossed)
of course, i wont expect him to agree with me praying to get out of situations... he mite even think me foolish... but its abt me and God and no one else..
yes, she will lose her temper if i go out often, and i do wan to avoid that... u noe why? because i'm afraid for myself, afraid that i will lose my own temper and become so emotional and irrational... who noes i mite do things that i will later regret... till i can successfully understand her and tok to her in a calm and rational way, i do not want to affect the status quo...
yes, wj pushes me to the edge, he wants me to step out to the unknown, watever... i can only say i will try... whenever i become angry, i will pray... it helps cos i cast all my cares and worries to God, i noe God will take care of it... anyways, i hope our relationship will not be affected by my negative emotions, wj understands (with fingers crossed)
of course, i wont expect him to agree with me praying to get out of situations... he mite even think me foolish... but its abt me and God and no one else..
another uni fren's wedding
saw my uni fren's wedding pics on facebook so sweeeeeeeeeettttttttt.... makes me feel like getting married too... haha!
then comes the question.. wats my dream wedding gonna be like?? i wan it simple, yet romantic, and exotic even... of course, a dream is a dream is a dream... hehe... the usual custom would be like to ROM, followed by 1 yr of preparation for wedding, usually in some hotel ballroom, on that day itself, tea ceremony, and then in the evening will be the wedding dinner...
well, this is the usual procedure, but i'm thinking i wan to reduce the hassle, like instead of a wedding dinner, can have a wedding lunch...
actually i also have jitters about getting married although is super sweeeeetttt and i wan it to happen (like duh!). cos its gonna be a organizational nitemare... imagine wat u have to do, plan the guest list, the venue, the wedding dress selections, the picture taking, on that day itself that everything goes smooth, and God noes wat else!
hmmmm, i just hope that i will be kept sane after all that is through! :\
then comes the question.. wats my dream wedding gonna be like?? i wan it simple, yet romantic, and exotic even... of course, a dream is a dream is a dream... hehe... the usual custom would be like to ROM, followed by 1 yr of preparation for wedding, usually in some hotel ballroom, on that day itself, tea ceremony, and then in the evening will be the wedding dinner...
well, this is the usual procedure, but i'm thinking i wan to reduce the hassle, like instead of a wedding dinner, can have a wedding lunch...
actually i also have jitters about getting married although is super sweeeeetttt and i wan it to happen (like duh!). cos its gonna be a organizational nitemare... imagine wat u have to do, plan the guest list, the venue, the wedding dress selections, the picture taking, on that day itself that everything goes smooth, and God noes wat else!
hmmmm, i just hope that i will be kept sane after all that is through! :\
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
monsters vs aliens
yest after my hokien mee dinner (long long time since ive eaten...mmm...), went to watch movie "monsters vs aliens". It wasnt the best movie i've watched, but it suits my lame taste just fine! i laughed like nobody's business, but then i could hear the whole cinema laughing too, so i din feel out of place... best of all, wj laughed so loud i could hear him perfectly.. LOL :D
overall it was another enjoyable nite out! hehe
overall it was another enjoyable nite out! hehe
Monday, June 1, 2009
aloof and impatient folk
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yes, i hate talking to such aloof and impatient people cos it simply makes u feel bad... but i dun have a choice..
"so wat do u want me to do?" he asks me
in my heart, i was thinking... "i'm not so sure..."
i said, "jon asked me about it, who's doing the remote testing and i was quiet"
"and so wat do u want me to do? talk to Danny again?" brusquely comes the reply.
resignedly, i said, "i'll email Danny then till he settles the remote problem, thanks"
the conversation then ends....
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so i simply dun like to speak with this senior, he's the last person whom i would likely ask a question actually... and the thing is there's no point feeling bad even if i have to ask him, its simply his nature of dealing with stuff... straight to the point... so straight like an arrow being released (passes through my body and hurling me to the ground, in the comical sense) and hurting ppl in its path.... ha!
yes, i hate talking to such aloof and impatient people cos it simply makes u feel bad... but i dun have a choice..
"so wat do u want me to do?" he asks me
in my heart, i was thinking... "i'm not so sure..."
i said, "jon asked me about it, who's doing the remote testing and i was quiet"
"and so wat do u want me to do? talk to Danny again?" brusquely comes the reply.
resignedly, i said, "i'll email Danny then till he settles the remote problem, thanks"
the conversation then ends....
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so i simply dun like to speak with this senior, he's the last person whom i would likely ask a question actually... and the thing is there's no point feeling bad even if i have to ask him, its simply his nature of dealing with stuff... straight to the point... so straight like an arrow being released (passes through my body and hurling me to the ground, in the comical sense) and hurting ppl in its path.... ha!
poem dedicated to my curry chicken noodles....
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steamy, spicy
warm and fragrant,
just so nice,
i miss its tasty,
tender is the chicken,
strong is the curry smell
slurp-worthy is the noodles
yummy yum yum
love it,
miss it,
kiss it,
but it ceases,
no more there,
no more anymore,
no more to satisfy
my curry noodle cravings
steamy, spicy
warm and fragrant,
just so nice,
i miss its tasty,
tender is the chicken,
strong is the curry smell
slurp-worthy is the noodles
yummy yum yum
love it,
miss it,
kiss it,
but it ceases,
no more there,
no more anymore,
no more to satisfy
my curry noodle cravings
my best dinner ever!
last nite, had dinner with wj cousins.... wow! it was like the best ever meal, my very first time eating puffer fish! puffer fish leh!!!! omy goodness, must remove the poisonous parts well, otherwise dangerous! and it really was nice, taste like ba kwa and wooh, i like it!
the sashimi was just...FABULOUS! had the chance to eat tuna belly which one slice costs a bomb... it was truly mouth melting man, cant even begin to describe how good the whole dish was! the salmon slices and wat not... *wooooo.... LOL:D
and i ordered terriyaki cod, wow wow wow, can taste the freshness of it all, its just simply irresistible! really reminds me of the steamed cod i ate at chinatown with nancy and co. hmm~
the century egg tofu and chawamushi with sharks' fin was GREAT, nothing short of fantabulous! and to end off the wonderful meal, we had icecream, mine was sesame, while wj's green tea, and of course i "kopped" some of wj's...HAHHA!
Overall, its a thumbs up for every dish! 5 stars (okok 10 stars!!!) WEE!
the sashimi was just...FABULOUS! had the chance to eat tuna belly which one slice costs a bomb... it was truly mouth melting man, cant even begin to describe how good the whole dish was! the salmon slices and wat not... *wooooo.... LOL:D
and i ordered terriyaki cod, wow wow wow, can taste the freshness of it all, its just simply irresistible! really reminds me of the steamed cod i ate at chinatown with nancy and co. hmm~
the century egg tofu and chawamushi with sharks' fin was GREAT, nothing short of fantabulous! and to end off the wonderful meal, we had icecream, mine was sesame, while wj's green tea, and of course i "kopped" some of wj's...HAHHA!
Overall, its a thumbs up for every dish! 5 stars (okok 10 stars!!!) WEE!
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