travelling

when i go travelling (last place was vietnam)i enjoyed the company of wj and his cousins, not thinking of work, just simply taking in the sights and sounds of vung tau a place 2.5 h drive away from ho chi minh.
it was really awesome and a good place to retire to, because of the simple life that ppl there have. the place was so windy because it was near the sea, and u can actually see the crashing waves from a distance. wow, singapore has got nothing to compare with in terms of wind and waves... of course we have build up good breakwaters and so on as a preventive measure, but to feel the wind that strong, it is another whole new experience.
we were also caught animatedly talking abt buying a huge house there and then everyone living in it together, it was a dream and it was something we could perhaps work on... lol
that time, we were just sitting at a riverside cafe and looking across to the huge bungalow, i thought to myself, it would be so nice if i could live right next to the river, even going to the cafe everyday to just relax and do some reading.

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anyways when i returned back home, i was constantly thinking abt travelling, not sure why, mayb ive been bitten by the travel bug, or have become a bug myself. but of course, i have some limitations, not enuf cash plus not enuf job leaves. so what to do? i started watching travelling shows on channel 16, and imagining myself travelling with the host, this feeling leaves me feeling quite strangely refreshed.
lol, hence my travelling 'addiction' was quenched :)

to have or not to have

sometimes i think that having more does not equal to having more happiness. in fact, having more only creates chances for losing more, so the rich tend to hoard and hoard, of course there are others who are beyond generous (or mayb they have no idea how much effort is put in to earn the excesses that they now have, i'm not sure)
but i for one am quite irrational when it comes to losing my hard earned possessions (or not so many, since i'm really stingy, haha!)thats y i would prefer not to bring any unneccessary valuables overseas as much as possible, however, i'm made to break this rule of mine, because i need to consider for others.
yes, consider for others... sometimes i wonder do we live for others or for ourselves? or mayb is just a delicate balance btw the two, since no man is an island.
or mayb imagine the chaos if we all lived according to our every wish and whim... alas! however swinging to the extreme end, too much consideration for others just means depending ur happiness on others, you do what they want you to do and then when they are happy they show some appreciation, when they are not, they make life pretty miserable for u...
so... how do u make it all balance, that's the million dollar question, and perhaps something that people spend all their lives trying to find out.

some very random thoughts

nowadays when i exit from office and head home, i always look around me in the bus, looking at ppl, looking at the outside scenery, greeted by the evening sky, the beautiful clouds in various shapes and sizes, comforting my very tired eyes.
as i take it all in, and enjoy the ride to eunos station, i can only sigh in content.
as i reach back to pasir ris, i walk along the path surrounded by a grassy patch and continue looking at the sky. with the shadow of the building, and the sky as the background, i feel that everything is so beautiful! if only ppl, including myself can stop and stare into the distance every time, we can all appreciate the beauty of nature, ah! time to go off again!

vietnam trip

yay! cant wait to throw aside work and go to vietnam! been so stressed and tired of converting several customers' older data into the newer version, and training them, but thats the line of my work, but too much routine and tediousness just envelops me and leaves me feeling sick!
thank God that this week i'm feeling free-er and the fact that my looking forward to the vietnam trip just makes my days happier, as though there's nothing in the world to depress me!
haha! just a word to describe my excitement, WOOHOO!

"blink" by malcolm gladwell

recently i went to the library to borrow some books, and i managed to find this book "blink" by malcolm gladwell. ive been wanting to read this book for a long time, and while i was scanning through the library pc, found all the copies on loan. i was disappointed, but not for long. i randomly scanned the book shelves and lo and behold, i saw a copy lying there!! boy was i feeling lucky, LOL
it was fated to be mine for the next 3 weeks, hahahah!
i haven finished it, but i was intrigued by the book.
its basically about how we can act on our instinct/intuition to judge things, or to make snap decisions without overloading our minds with info... pretty interesting read :)

very work filled week

this week is pretty hectic, almost everyday i have to go to customer place either to do installation or training. my database conversion skill is almost perfected LOL
anyways, nothing much going on in my life now that cny is over. its pretty much bac to the routine of everyday life, plus extra stormy due to my touchy temper during my pms days....

An intruder

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walking alone along the dark path, homeward bound, i was overwhelmed with a sense of loneliness and melancholy. thinking of those who are having fun over cold crab and cranium, i can only sigh and lament inwardly.
perhaps, i was never considered one of them, the ties that bind btw cousins, and me a nobody except through the connection to wj. an intruder true and true, which is why when i'm around, there never seems to have any game playing like taboo.
i'm perhaps just interrupting the fun among the rest, nothing more. something that tells me i'm probably unwelcome. maybe a little oversensitivity on my part, but i'm pretty sure i'm rite
oh, whatever it is, maybe i should be thinking of what i can do on my own, instead of depending on ppl ard me (even wj) to provide the happiness and good cheer, they dont anyways, and probably despise me secretly. i can only say that disappointment with certain ppl hangs in the atmosphere
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when your partner is ALMOST totally different from you

yepz, my other half is 90% different from me, the only things in common are food, nature and probably basketball.... and thats where the similarity ends...
its pretty sad, because whenever i get hooked to dramas and chinese movies and wish to share something with him, he's not interested in watching it with me... there's no one to share this passion with.. now that i'm still staying with my parents, at least there's my mum i can tok to cos she also gets hooked on them...
however when i'm married, things will become somewhat lonely... haiz oh well wat to do... to love someone who's far from the ideal guy... perhaps i have to endure this loneliness and just get involved in my own passions... i shd be more independent and self satisfied, dun expect too much, for more expectations, come more disappointments..
i guess i can be considered somewhat lucky, some ppl may find their other halves who are so TOTALLY different from one another, and end up totally sad in their marriage, one example would be my parents...
anyways, yea, in my opinion, i still think that if your other half is at least 50% similar in your interests, your relationship would be much better off :)

been with ups and downs recently

ive been emotionally up and down recently, dunno is it the changing of my hormones?? or i'm just troubled with various issues???
the last issue on my mind is someone owing me a whole lot of cash, and my worries that i cant get back the $$
been abit gan chiong about it, and also the fact that it was part of my life's savings, which is itself hard earned! so i dun wan any person i trust to abuse that trust! :(

a book i'm currently reading

now i'm reading this book by danielle steel called 'toxic bachelors'
its pretty interesting about 3 bachelors who meet each other every year for a fun vacation on a yacht. their definition of fun sounded kinda debauchery and mostly sinful however, each of them meets a woman and falls in love. of course they make changes for their women, but these changes did not come easy, and makes good reading and food for thought.
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aside from reading, something else thats quite random... i'm thinking of getting lasik to correct my sight..... its abt 3k plus and can be cumbersome for that one month after the surgery. shd i really do it?? mayb just before my wedding? LOL