xmas dinner

had a really wonderful company dinner last nite @ mandarin oriental! i ate up mostly the crabs, lobsters, sashimi, roast ham, and cakes! the cakes were fabulous, sweet but not that sweet, and the coffee flavour of the xmas log cake just makes it all so yummy!
after dinner we had lucky draw of some sorts, with everyone eventually getting a present. the funny thing was i got the present that my dad was eyeing, wine and cup set! so everyone was congratulating me, saying, "good, then u can give to ur dad!"
haha! call that fate, it was meant to be my dad's when he first caught eye on it! LOL

the end of the year

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with the year ending,
a new beginning awaits,
new trials and lessons,
new people,
and mayb even new frens,
but one thing never changes,
God's love for us.

as i reflect on wats going on in my life,
i realise,
its all about decisions,
whether wise or unwise,
happy or not,
it is all cause and effect.

someone said i was self-absorbed,
mayb i am,
or i just felt like not bothering to maintain a facade,
to mask my self confidence of not knowing how to communicate with others.
i try my best when meeting up with frens, but deep down, i know the truth.
sometimes i believe my frens are able to sense this as well,
thats why i never have that many close frens in my entire 23yrs.
my so called close frens are not as close as i wanted them to be,
alas!

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they say that as long as u sincerely care for ur frens, they will draw closer to u,
or does it mean that i'm not sincere on how i treat my frens??? i dunno....
as the end of the year draws to a close, i hope that my concern for others will grow....

the past few days of activity

yeah, i was so kept up with activities this week (since my mum is away, *who let the dogs out woof woof woof woof woof haha! ;d) but somehow i feel quite disconnected with myself... perhaps i didn spend enuf time with myself.... sometimes, we need the peace and quiet to calm down our excitable selves and of course to pray and communicate with our daddy God.
anyways tonite is perhaps one of the last nites of my total anarchic freedom... and i'm gonna go watch a live basketball game! *Whoops
i wish i could play ball well, but unfortunately i dun have the will to keep up with it, perhaps my passion is only temporary, lik all other things that make me excited..

feeling bored

the feeling of boredom, is so rare, cos a burden was just lifted from my shoulders... been rushing for data conversion for 30 companies, the procedure is easy but it was downright tedious! plus the fact that i have to deliver it this morning, (thank God i finished it yesterday!)
haha! so now i'm pretty free as a bird, till my next customer does some preparation for the setup.

cant bear to go bac to work so quickly on mon, so i took leave to rest my routinised mind (doing the same steps 30 times is no kidding i tell u, i think i would be able to do this kind of data conversion next time with both eyes closed... >.<)

so yea, m waiting to continue my foosball.... waiting... still waiting....

good after ranting n ans customer query

yea i'm more cheered up after my earlier post and talking to a highly gan chiong customer... strangely enuf, it has picked me up and led me to continue with life as per normal, haha! anyways its just one of our many big squabbles, and the fact that we hadn had one in ages...

~the end

acceptance...

yes, perhaps it is more for him to accept my flaws, since my flaws are probably more glaring... but is it fair for me? the flaws i need to accept seem paled in comparison huh.... i have to accept his messyness, him turning day into nite with his bad sleeping habit, his too fun-loving character, his slackness when i ask him to do something and he says ok later and which he doesn do it in the end cos its a small thing and doesn interest him and he forgets, and lack of motivation in his studies that might create more chances for a better future, his expenditure with techie stuff when he just makes sure he can just afford it, with little savings left over and for me to be the main person saving up for the most impt day of our lives because i'm the one working and having more income while he's still a student. he is lucky that his family is a more normal one, one that i hope to have, so accepting this is a breeze, while he has to accept my mother, one whom i too wish i can choose, but reality bites because no one can choose who their parents are....
yes.... my acceptances of him are mostly physical, while his acceptances of me are more psychological? i dunno... perhaps lets just say that each and everyone of us does need to accept each other's differences even if the degree is different.. why? thats because everyone of us is different! our characters and responses are so different! the way we are brought up and taught to think are also different!
and yes, he was right when he said i was angry at myself, but it was at first... after the nite walk i was better and even msged to him first to ask him to get over his anger... his responses there after just got me more pissed and upset.... he misinterpreted wat i mean and didn think he had a part to play in my sadness...
i said sorry, and his first reponse was he will accept if i mean it and make effort to change my temper.... now, sorry to me is a hard word to say to anyone... and i made a conscious effort to do so, but i didn expect that kind of return. besides, does he also think he didn need to apologise for misinterpreting and hurtin me with his words? mayb i shdn have msged him cos it "seem" to create more anger.... perhaps then all would have turned out better...
watever it is, it is all said and done.... cooling off for now is better for both of us...

actually more peace....

having passed through the stage of extreme irritation aka anger, ive just amused myself with more slamdunk... apparently, something came up and as most humans are, when things do not go as expected, they get worked up. yea anyways i hope to not let this event ruin the rest of my today.

my bdae week!

this week has been like a whirlwind, afterall its my bdae week! tues-fri i spend my time outside home, with today staying over at wj's place :) mayb gonna watch movie marathon or mayb shd do something different since i dun stay out all that often
yea, very happy! this is perhaps my best bdae ever LOL :D
*appreciate all the little things in my life, claps!

kept up with busy-ness

yea this month has been chaotically busy! i was given reports to do by my bro, some forms by a senior, and then ic oe and po training and more forms alignment at a customer's place which is in..... TUAS!
now i'm only taking a breather and coming in to blog about it, with my next training session on my mind.. ar and ap only and its at ang mo kio... quite relax about it actually since it is not as difficult anymore :) now is only the thing about getting there... how? if only my dad can drive me there... ha

at least i finished my reports already, so nothing really bugs me while i concentrate on my next training.. hehe alright now back to more testings!

my first ic oe and po training

i was totally stressed out for my ic, oe and po training preparation, but now that ive gone through it, it was not so bad :)
and then i apparently fell sick and am still having the cold...
so the moral of the story is..... to not stress urself, cos ur body cannot take it, also, things always turn out well despite ur worse imaginations :\
haha! so there...
now im reading the saint, surfer and the ceo by robin sharma. This book is divided into 3 parts, and yes, im reading the saint portion :-) hehe
rite, shall end here, time to enjoy my sunday, yeeha!