the end of the year

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with the year ending,
a new beginning awaits,
new trials and lessons,
new people,
and mayb even new frens,
but one thing never changes,
God's love for us.

as i reflect on wats going on in my life,
i realise,
its all about decisions,
whether wise or unwise,
happy or not,
it is all cause and effect.

someone said i was self-absorbed,
mayb i am,
or i just felt like not bothering to maintain a facade,
to mask my self confidence of not knowing how to communicate with others.
i try my best when meeting up with frens, but deep down, i know the truth.
sometimes i believe my frens are able to sense this as well,
thats why i never have that many close frens in my entire 23yrs.
my so called close frens are not as close as i wanted them to be,
alas!

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they say that as long as u sincerely care for ur frens, they will draw closer to u,
or does it mean that i'm not sincere on how i treat my frens??? i dunno....
as the end of the year draws to a close, i hope that my concern for others will grow....