acceptance...

yes, perhaps it is more for him to accept my flaws, since my flaws are probably more glaring... but is it fair for me? the flaws i need to accept seem paled in comparison huh.... i have to accept his messyness, him turning day into nite with his bad sleeping habit, his too fun-loving character, his slackness when i ask him to do something and he says ok later and which he doesn do it in the end cos its a small thing and doesn interest him and he forgets, and lack of motivation in his studies that might create more chances for a better future, his expenditure with techie stuff when he just makes sure he can just afford it, with little savings left over and for me to be the main person saving up for the most impt day of our lives because i'm the one working and having more income while he's still a student. he is lucky that his family is a more normal one, one that i hope to have, so accepting this is a breeze, while he has to accept my mother, one whom i too wish i can choose, but reality bites because no one can choose who their parents are....
yes.... my acceptances of him are mostly physical, while his acceptances of me are more psychological? i dunno... perhaps lets just say that each and everyone of us does need to accept each other's differences even if the degree is different.. why? thats because everyone of us is different! our characters and responses are so different! the way we are brought up and taught to think are also different!
and yes, he was right when he said i was angry at myself, but it was at first... after the nite walk i was better and even msged to him first to ask him to get over his anger... his responses there after just got me more pissed and upset.... he misinterpreted wat i mean and didn think he had a part to play in my sadness...
i said sorry, and his first reponse was he will accept if i mean it and make effort to change my temper.... now, sorry to me is a hard word to say to anyone... and i made a conscious effort to do so, but i didn expect that kind of return. besides, does he also think he didn need to apologise for misinterpreting and hurtin me with his words? mayb i shdn have msged him cos it "seem" to create more anger.... perhaps then all would have turned out better...
watever it is, it is all said and done.... cooling off for now is better for both of us...