somehow still feeling the discomfort, though the quarrel is gone, it hasn gotten back to normal.... i'm feeling hesitant abt some things especially wary of how he'll ignore me again (if i force his hand)
keeping more things to myself, thinking before i talk, lest i get ignored again for being quick to reject, quick to react, overeact... and the list can go on...
seriously how did things turn out this way??
since when did i feel this uncomfortable with him? as if my straightforward nature is being shaped to become something no more recognisable by me
am i losing me??
i dun wan to lose him, but do i wan to lose me?
a me that could be a loser, a scared, a angry, a hater me?? all these are the very negative traits, and shd be changed... and change is so painful, its making me so uncomfortable, so unsure....
do i have the strength to get through this change period? LORD! I DONT HAVE THE STRENGTH, U ARE MY STRENGTH!
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I hope things get better for you. Phoebe
ReplyDeleteyupz, eventually it will, but at the moment is still a tumultous changing process... one that causes a whole lot of stress and frustrations, but yet is inevitable.... i think u noe wat i mean :)
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