its something about impatient ppl liking one another.... tis customer of mine seems to always rush into putting down the phone even before i wan to finish wat i have to say.
its just like my bro.... no wonder he likes my bro soooo much.... its pretty irritating and gets on my nerves, but i have to think positive... there are so many kinds of ppl in the world, plus he isn't all that bad to me, just a tad impatient....
actually i do have a mind to tell him to slow down, "patience my man...."
things will be done when they need to be done....
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
back to original....and even better :)
yup, me and wj are back to normal, or its even better, as after our quarrels we do. except this one which was a defining moment for us, since we both considered whether we should continue our relationship, and had come to a conclusion that we love and need each other.
and to celebrate this moment (amongst other reasons like wj's bdae is coming, plus encouragement for his last lap), i bought a ipod touch for him. the one he wanted, 32gb. he was stunned and shocked but really happy, and i really enjoyed seeing the look of surprise on his face and the happiness was so clearly palpable.
and to celebrate this moment (amongst other reasons like wj's bdae is coming, plus encouragement for his last lap), i bought a ipod touch for him. the one he wanted, 32gb. he was stunned and shocked but really happy, and i really enjoyed seeing the look of surprise on his face and the happiness was so clearly palpable.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
when i recognise ppl's faults, its like a mirror
last nite i realised i have one of my mum's lousy traits, when i saw that she panicked due to her wrong perception of time, and ruined a good dinner meal. it was then i knew that it was like a mirror reflecting the image of myself and clearly it kinda annoyed me... and while i was annoyed, i also felt i shd not b so quick to judge/ overreact.
because i am also guilty of this...
fact is till this day, i'm still (trying) to try to change this panicky feel whenever i'm unsure....even in my line of work while answering to customers' queries...
sometimes i deal with this quite well, but other times (mostly), i can simply lose it and start calling for my senior's help without so much as a thought...
because i am also guilty of this...
fact is till this day, i'm still (trying) to try to change this panicky feel whenever i'm unsure....even in my line of work while answering to customers' queries...
sometimes i deal with this quite well, but other times (mostly), i can simply lose it and start calling for my senior's help without so much as a thought...
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
done and resolved (part II)
somehow still feeling the discomfort, though the quarrel is gone, it hasn gotten back to normal.... i'm feeling hesitant abt some things especially wary of how he'll ignore me again (if i force his hand)
keeping more things to myself, thinking before i talk, lest i get ignored again for being quick to reject, quick to react, overeact... and the list can go on...
seriously how did things turn out this way??
since when did i feel this uncomfortable with him? as if my straightforward nature is being shaped to become something no more recognisable by me
am i losing me??
i dun wan to lose him, but do i wan to lose me?
a me that could be a loser, a scared, a angry, a hater me?? all these are the very negative traits, and shd be changed... and change is so painful, its making me so uncomfortable, so unsure....
do i have the strength to get through this change period? LORD! I DONT HAVE THE STRENGTH, U ARE MY STRENGTH!
keeping more things to myself, thinking before i talk, lest i get ignored again for being quick to reject, quick to react, overeact... and the list can go on...
seriously how did things turn out this way??
since when did i feel this uncomfortable with him? as if my straightforward nature is being shaped to become something no more recognisable by me
am i losing me??
i dun wan to lose him, but do i wan to lose me?
a me that could be a loser, a scared, a angry, a hater me?? all these are the very negative traits, and shd be changed... and change is so painful, its making me so uncomfortable, so unsure....
do i have the strength to get through this change period? LORD! I DONT HAVE THE STRENGTH, U ARE MY STRENGTH!
in a quarrel who is wrong
now there's this scenario thats bothering me
in a quarrel, person A talks unreasonably, person B storms off
to person A, storming off and ignoring any contact is something that deeply hurts.
person A eventually apologises to person B when she noe wats the main issue
person B assumes the apology because he thinks it is entirely the fault of person A that he responds in the storming manner, and totally disregards person A's hurt.
now wat do u think would be a solution for person A to become "unhurt" again? go figure...
in a quarrel, person A talks unreasonably, person B storms off
to person A, storming off and ignoring any contact is something that deeply hurts.
person A eventually apologises to person B when she noe wats the main issue
person B assumes the apology because he thinks it is entirely the fault of person A that he responds in the storming manner, and totally disregards person A's hurt.
now wat do u think would be a solution for person A to become "unhurt" again? go figure...
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
quarrel that mite.....
yepz, just last nite we had a quarrel followed by a cold war which was initiated by wj.
he says he will ignore me if i refuse to listen to him. nw many ppl are asking me to listen to them as well. my mum asking me to listen to her and nt bathe too late, she even asked my aunt to 'nag' at me, which my aunt also wan me to heed that advice.
i hear it, but whether i put it to action is another thing.
hearing is just one ear in and then out, while listening entails hearing and then heeding that advice. on the one hand, i'm really disturbed by what wj is doing but on the other, i'm slowly changing by his 'influence' if he doesn understand that and just blindly wans me to do everything he says in order to get happiness, i dun think i can do that....
his idea is simple, for me to 'defy' my mum, i would even be sure he'll suggest me to go out as late as i wan, go out anytime i wan, learn diving like him, dun say no when he needs me, learn other new skills maybe to also quit my job and go out to try different things, stayover with him as a "trial" before marrage to see if we are suited as lifelong partners, to stay with him after we ROM before we have our customary chinese dinner, the list is likely to be longer....
now if i were to listen to all this, sure, i mite be happy, but will it be for long?
when i noe that i mite put a strain to my family ties, which already isnt really that good, i dun feel good as well, especially when my mum is aging, and frankly speaking not much time left for her before she goes heaven. i surely need not speed things up for her by driving her mad, rite? anyways i could perhaps do some of it but to him, its definitely not alot and not enuf...
of course wj cant understand this "silly" point of mine. if he's reading this, he'll probably be hopping mad, but i'm penning all this down in here, not sure where else i can pour it out....
Lord, i leave this matter into Your hands, my sadness, my anger and hurts, for You are my fortress, my stronghold and forever my protector. Amen!
he says he will ignore me if i refuse to listen to him. nw many ppl are asking me to listen to them as well. my mum asking me to listen to her and nt bathe too late, she even asked my aunt to 'nag' at me, which my aunt also wan me to heed that advice.
i hear it, but whether i put it to action is another thing.
hearing is just one ear in and then out, while listening entails hearing and then heeding that advice. on the one hand, i'm really disturbed by what wj is doing but on the other, i'm slowly changing by his 'influence' if he doesn understand that and just blindly wans me to do everything he says in order to get happiness, i dun think i can do that....
his idea is simple, for me to 'defy' my mum, i would even be sure he'll suggest me to go out as late as i wan, go out anytime i wan, learn diving like him, dun say no when he needs me, learn other new skills maybe to also quit my job and go out to try different things, stayover with him as a "trial" before marrage to see if we are suited as lifelong partners, to stay with him after we ROM before we have our customary chinese dinner, the list is likely to be longer....
now if i were to listen to all this, sure, i mite be happy, but will it be for long?
when i noe that i mite put a strain to my family ties, which already isnt really that good, i dun feel good as well, especially when my mum is aging, and frankly speaking not much time left for her before she goes heaven. i surely need not speed things up for her by driving her mad, rite? anyways i could perhaps do some of it but to him, its definitely not alot and not enuf...
of course wj cant understand this "silly" point of mine. if he's reading this, he'll probably be hopping mad, but i'm penning all this down in here, not sure where else i can pour it out....
Lord, i leave this matter into Your hands, my sadness, my anger and hurts, for You are my fortress, my stronghold and forever my protector. Amen!
Friday, April 16, 2010
travelling
when i go travelling (last place was vietnam)i enjoyed the company of wj and his cousins, not thinking of work, just simply taking in the sights and sounds of vung tau a place 2.5 h drive away from ho chi minh.
it was really awesome and a good place to retire to, because of the simple life that ppl there have. the place was so windy because it was near the sea, and u can actually see the crashing waves from a distance. wow, singapore has got nothing to compare with in terms of wind and waves... of course we have build up good breakwaters and so on as a preventive measure, but to feel the wind that strong, it is another whole new experience.
we were also caught animatedly talking abt buying a huge house there and then everyone living in it together, it was a dream and it was something we could perhaps work on... lol
that time, we were just sitting at a riverside cafe and looking across to the huge bungalow, i thought to myself, it would be so nice if i could live right next to the river, even going to the cafe everyday to just relax and do some reading.
~
anyways when i returned back home, i was constantly thinking abt travelling, not sure why, mayb ive been bitten by the travel bug, or have become a bug myself. but of course, i have some limitations, not enuf cash plus not enuf job leaves. so what to do? i started watching travelling shows on channel 16, and imagining myself travelling with the host, this feeling leaves me feeling quite strangely refreshed.
lol, hence my travelling 'addiction' was quenched :)
it was really awesome and a good place to retire to, because of the simple life that ppl there have. the place was so windy because it was near the sea, and u can actually see the crashing waves from a distance. wow, singapore has got nothing to compare with in terms of wind and waves... of course we have build up good breakwaters and so on as a preventive measure, but to feel the wind that strong, it is another whole new experience.
we were also caught animatedly talking abt buying a huge house there and then everyone living in it together, it was a dream and it was something we could perhaps work on... lol
that time, we were just sitting at a riverside cafe and looking across to the huge bungalow, i thought to myself, it would be so nice if i could live right next to the river, even going to the cafe everyday to just relax and do some reading.
~
anyways when i returned back home, i was constantly thinking abt travelling, not sure why, mayb ive been bitten by the travel bug, or have become a bug myself. but of course, i have some limitations, not enuf cash plus not enuf job leaves. so what to do? i started watching travelling shows on channel 16, and imagining myself travelling with the host, this feeling leaves me feeling quite strangely refreshed.
lol, hence my travelling 'addiction' was quenched :)
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