very work filled week

this week is pretty hectic, almost everyday i have to go to customer place either to do installation or training. my database conversion skill is almost perfected LOL
anyways, nothing much going on in my life now that cny is over. its pretty much bac to the routine of everyday life, plus extra stormy due to my touchy temper during my pms days....

An intruder

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walking alone along the dark path, homeward bound, i was overwhelmed with a sense of loneliness and melancholy. thinking of those who are having fun over cold crab and cranium, i can only sigh and lament inwardly.
perhaps, i was never considered one of them, the ties that bind btw cousins, and me a nobody except through the connection to wj. an intruder true and true, which is why when i'm around, there never seems to have any game playing like taboo.
i'm perhaps just interrupting the fun among the rest, nothing more. something that tells me i'm probably unwelcome. maybe a little oversensitivity on my part, but i'm pretty sure i'm rite
oh, whatever it is, maybe i should be thinking of what i can do on my own, instead of depending on ppl ard me (even wj) to provide the happiness and good cheer, they dont anyways, and probably despise me secretly. i can only say that disappointment with certain ppl hangs in the atmosphere
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when your partner is ALMOST totally different from you

yepz, my other half is 90% different from me, the only things in common are food, nature and probably basketball.... and thats where the similarity ends...
its pretty sad, because whenever i get hooked to dramas and chinese movies and wish to share something with him, he's not interested in watching it with me... there's no one to share this passion with.. now that i'm still staying with my parents, at least there's my mum i can tok to cos she also gets hooked on them...
however when i'm married, things will become somewhat lonely... haiz oh well wat to do... to love someone who's far from the ideal guy... perhaps i have to endure this loneliness and just get involved in my own passions... i shd be more independent and self satisfied, dun expect too much, for more expectations, come more disappointments..
i guess i can be considered somewhat lucky, some ppl may find their other halves who are so TOTALLY different from one another, and end up totally sad in their marriage, one example would be my parents...
anyways, yea, in my opinion, i still think that if your other half is at least 50% similar in your interests, your relationship would be much better off :)

been with ups and downs recently

ive been emotionally up and down recently, dunno is it the changing of my hormones?? or i'm just troubled with various issues???
the last issue on my mind is someone owing me a whole lot of cash, and my worries that i cant get back the $$
been abit gan chiong about it, and also the fact that it was part of my life's savings, which is itself hard earned! so i dun wan any person i trust to abuse that trust! :(

a book i'm currently reading

now i'm reading this book by danielle steel called 'toxic bachelors'
its pretty interesting about 3 bachelors who meet each other every year for a fun vacation on a yacht. their definition of fun sounded kinda debauchery and mostly sinful however, each of them meets a woman and falls in love. of course they make changes for their women, but these changes did not come easy, and makes good reading and food for thought.
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aside from reading, something else thats quite random... i'm thinking of getting lasik to correct my sight..... its abt 3k plus and can be cumbersome for that one month after the surgery. shd i really do it?? mayb just before my wedding? LOL