to have or not to have

sometimes i think that having more does not equal to having more happiness. in fact, having more only creates chances for losing more, so the rich tend to hoard and hoard, of course there are others who are beyond generous (or mayb they have no idea how much effort is put in to earn the excesses that they now have, i'm not sure)
but i for one am quite irrational when it comes to losing my hard earned possessions (or not so many, since i'm really stingy, haha!)thats y i would prefer not to bring any unneccessary valuables overseas as much as possible, however, i'm made to break this rule of mine, because i need to consider for others.
yes, consider for others... sometimes i wonder do we live for others or for ourselves? or mayb is just a delicate balance btw the two, since no man is an island.
or mayb imagine the chaos if we all lived according to our every wish and whim... alas! however swinging to the extreme end, too much consideration for others just means depending ur happiness on others, you do what they want you to do and then when they are happy they show some appreciation, when they are not, they make life pretty miserable for u...
so... how do u make it all balance, that's the million dollar question, and perhaps something that people spend all their lives trying to find out.

some very random thoughts

nowadays when i exit from office and head home, i always look around me in the bus, looking at ppl, looking at the outside scenery, greeted by the evening sky, the beautiful clouds in various shapes and sizes, comforting my very tired eyes.
as i take it all in, and enjoy the ride to eunos station, i can only sigh in content.
as i reach back to pasir ris, i walk along the path surrounded by a grassy patch and continue looking at the sky. with the shadow of the building, and the sky as the background, i feel that everything is so beautiful! if only ppl, including myself can stop and stare into the distance every time, we can all appreciate the beauty of nature, ah! time to go off again!

vietnam trip

yay! cant wait to throw aside work and go to vietnam! been so stressed and tired of converting several customers' older data into the newer version, and training them, but thats the line of my work, but too much routine and tediousness just envelops me and leaves me feeling sick!
thank God that this week i'm feeling free-er and the fact that my looking forward to the vietnam trip just makes my days happier, as though there's nothing in the world to depress me!
haha! just a word to describe my excitement, WOOHOO!

"blink" by malcolm gladwell

recently i went to the library to borrow some books, and i managed to find this book "blink" by malcolm gladwell. ive been wanting to read this book for a long time, and while i was scanning through the library pc, found all the copies on loan. i was disappointed, but not for long. i randomly scanned the book shelves and lo and behold, i saw a copy lying there!! boy was i feeling lucky, LOL
it was fated to be mine for the next 3 weeks, hahahah!
i haven finished it, but i was intrigued by the book.
its basically about how we can act on our instinct/intuition to judge things, or to make snap decisions without overloading our minds with info... pretty interesting read :)