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"why do i need to live much longer? what's the point of living when i'm experiencing aches and pains and stress and have no one to live for?"
this was something similar to wat i heard and it kind of scares me. Not that the depression and the helplessness was unexpected, but the thinking that was triggered was, like death was the solution?!
Why are ppl's comments so "deadly" for some and not for others? perhaps everyone has issues they are senstive to, and once "touched" upon, they can fly into a rage, go into depression and helplessness or even contemplate suicide in the worst case!
i perhaps choose to be depressed and helpless for awhile before the cycle returns... this is a shell that retreats into itself to rebuild the walls that have been torn down. At the very least it stays that way, until something really devastating comes along and catches me unawares and pins me down into the depths. that point would really have been close to death's door...
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could be that time of the month
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ya, that time of the month, u seem to just slide into the abyss, nvr to be seen, but after that time, it seems the abyss becomes a hole and u can climb out of it :-)
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