managing emotional turmoil, especially anger and annoyance

Yes as this post suggest, i'm facing an emotional turmoil with anger and annoyance. i don't know if its due to me growing older and getting more easily angry/annoyed? or the fact that my source is close to me, closer to me than before marriage (like duh... you see ur husband/wife everyday) In the past, I was able to ignore him or "scold" him via messages when i'm home, i can also sleep over it and the next morning i would feel so much better, all without his physical presence... Now after marrying my other half, i'm finding it so much harder... i have to ignore him and/or "scold" him face to face, and my anger/annoyance the next morning will still be there, and the cycle begins... this morning he says i'm playing the 'girl' game and plans to ignore me, i was downright upset and left the house to figure about things... thats when it hit me.... welcome to the world of married-hood! Now what would be the best solution when such scenario arises? its not possible to not see him until the next morning unless i flee back to my home and i couldn possibly do that as its tantamount to lead to divorce in the long run... I am caught in this crappy situation with the hope of voicing out on this platform and feeling better after that. I cant exactly communicate this face-to-face to my other half without breaking into tears, and he will think i'm using it as some kind of (blackmail? girl game?)or being "princessy" or whatever, basically my tears/crying give me strength to explain my emotional troubles as i can "blare" out all my frustrations (mostly incoherently) at least thats what i think...maybe i'm wrong..? O...K.... after typing it all out into sentences i'm feeling much much much better and also i'm not physically near my source. i can seek comfort in that, until tonight

my straight talking character

basically i'm a very straight talking person especially when i joke... sometimes (or most times) people dont get it. although i wonder if i tried to change this 'flaw' of mine will it matter? some people just choose to dislike you when time goes by..

if i were to change, will i still be 'me'? i'm afraid not, so perhaps, i should just stick with frens that appreciate me for who i am.

*musing

thoughts about the big E

ive always thought i was apathetic, but when i became caught up in the media, with reading articles and swarming comments, i became really enthused, all the way to the big E day and days after....

and if news and comments are believable, i think our G has got some big problems.
apologies aside, do they really know what's most important in our minds right now? the average S-reans? what do we REALLY need? not some kind of empty promises surely!

a thing that struck me was if someone was to be one of the country's policy makers, and he/she is only a rookie(abeit the not so mature) and endorsed by a senior, can we be able to put our trust in them? in view of more capable seniors being booted out, i would think it is unfair for the people who only had the choice to decide between the lesser of 2 evils....

i think, in the positive light, it can be said that the System was meant to help rookies in learning how to govern our country because sooner or later it will be handed over to the new generation, however, in the negative light as P is generally dirty, the System just seems to serve the purpose of stamping out the other "voices"

watever the case, lets hope that singapore will continue to move forward, to a world class country and citizenship :)

My new gadget

Am now trying to get used to my iPhone.. Apparently I found some interesting thing.. I can go online without 3G or wifi why is it so? *scratch head anyways it's so convenient to online anytime anywhere ;DD hipx2 hurray! Lol

back from HK!

yes! i'm back from hk, today marks one week from the time i flew off from here :D wow, time flies but at the same time i feel that i have done so many things in that one week.... 1 week was equivalent to 2 weeks! LOL
since i'm busy now, ive to come out from this entry
just one sentence ~ "HK and MACAU ROCKS!!!" :DDD

today is coming to an end :)

today is gonna be the start of my 9 day long (or should i say 8 days) hiatus from work :))) going off to macau and hongkong next week from 21-26th, yeeha! can feel the excitement creeping back in and plus now work is more relaxed. just previously i was mad with myself for missing out many things for my client, but most of that (i hope!) is over...

tonite will be watching tron in 3d. i dun really like to watch 3d stuff because it feels taxing for my eyes, plus the glasses constant slipping down my nose irritates the hell out of me, i find myself unable to enjoy the movie experience fully.
ah well, i guess its fine cos the special effects are supposed to be good..?

wanted to watch narnia/ranpunzel but the timing is really bad... and i have work tomoro (ya, its a sat and i'm still going down to customer place) so there's that....

everyday passes so quick

scary, everyday seems to be passing so fast. recently met up with 2 frens, and i was telling them that by now i'm not looking forward to counting how old i am... as i recalled i was excited when i finally reached 21 and was happily counting up 17,18,19,20,21! the magic 21! but rite after, when i started working, i realised that 22, 23 and 24 is coming rite up in the next few days seems scary... i noe how my mum feels.... and really i'm not exactly keen to keep track of my age. no wonder, women say that age is a secret, i believe that somehow it comes to the point where when someone asks abt their age, they had to minus of from their birthdate to give the correct answer! so they mite as well save this trouble... lol, and i'm beginning to do that! OMG >.<

rite, shall end now, before i become all so complainy about getting older....

freedom is mine, again!

haha, yepz, my parents are away in china for 9 days, so the house is mine... muahaha.. and also been religiously finding ways to exercise be it climbing up stairs at mrt stations wherever possible, walking extra bit longer... lol
but it feels really good, after sweating it out! it definitely has something to do with hormones heheh ;)

abt work, going down to a customer place with a senior helps me to learn better, esp when he's patient and will explain to me if i have any queries. best of all, i can learn how to interact better with my customers. my senior's really good!

and later i'm going down to another customer's place alone.. hoping to be able to practise on wat ive learnt and plus recently been PMS-sy, really wishing i can be as patient as i can be... she's an auntie afterall.... oh welllllll....

:|

yeah, im on a diet

ive been on a diet for about a few weeks, tryin to make a point to exercise everyday. of course it is good that ive committed to a goal of losing to 50kg. now i think ive lost ard 1kg or so. its tough, but at least i noe i'm now a lil' healthier than before rather than the eat, sit and sleep routine.

today i hope to lose another 500g or 1kg if possible. :)

ive put on some weight

yupz, have put on some weight since i came back from port dickson... and tonite's my mum's bdae dinner which is most likely gonna be..... a buffet!!
the thing abt buffets is that one is most likely to overeat, and since i'm uber greedy for food, u noe wat that means... but tonite, i will try to be more disciplined.... to eat less cakes and more fruits....