my straight talking character

basically i'm a very straight talking person especially when i joke... sometimes (or most times) people dont get it. although i wonder if i tried to change this 'flaw' of mine will it matter? some people just choose to dislike you when time goes by..

if i were to change, will i still be 'me'? i'm afraid not, so perhaps, i should just stick with frens that appreciate me for who i am.

*musing

thoughts about the big E

ive always thought i was apathetic, but when i became caught up in the media, with reading articles and swarming comments, i became really enthused, all the way to the big E day and days after....

and if news and comments are believable, i think our G has got some big problems.
apologies aside, do they really know what's most important in our minds right now? the average S-reans? what do we REALLY need? not some kind of empty promises surely!

a thing that struck me was if someone was to be one of the country's policy makers, and he/she is only a rookie(abeit the not so mature) and endorsed by a senior, can we be able to put our trust in them? in view of more capable seniors being booted out, i would think it is unfair for the people who only had the choice to decide between the lesser of 2 evils....

i think, in the positive light, it can be said that the System was meant to help rookies in learning how to govern our country because sooner or later it will be handed over to the new generation, however, in the negative light as P is generally dirty, the System just seems to serve the purpose of stamping out the other "voices"

watever the case, lets hope that singapore will continue to move forward, to a world class country and citizenship :)

My new gadget

Am now trying to get used to my iPhone.. Apparently I found some interesting thing.. I can go online without 3G or wifi why is it so? *scratch head anyways it's so convenient to online anytime anywhere ;DD hipx2 hurray! Lol

back from HK!

yes! i'm back from hk, today marks one week from the time i flew off from here :D wow, time flies but at the same time i feel that i have done so many things in that one week.... 1 week was equivalent to 2 weeks! LOL
since i'm busy now, ive to come out from this entry
just one sentence ~ "HK and MACAU ROCKS!!!" :DDD

today is coming to an end :)

today is gonna be the start of my 9 day long (or should i say 8 days) hiatus from work :))) going off to macau and hongkong next week from 21-26th, yeeha! can feel the excitement creeping back in and plus now work is more relaxed. just previously i was mad with myself for missing out many things for my client, but most of that (i hope!) is over...

tonite will be watching tron in 3d. i dun really like to watch 3d stuff because it feels taxing for my eyes, plus the glasses constant slipping down my nose irritates the hell out of me, i find myself unable to enjoy the movie experience fully.
ah well, i guess its fine cos the special effects are supposed to be good..?

wanted to watch narnia/ranpunzel but the timing is really bad... and i have work tomoro (ya, its a sat and i'm still going down to customer place) so there's that....

everyday passes so quick

scary, everyday seems to be passing so fast. recently met up with 2 frens, and i was telling them that by now i'm not looking forward to counting how old i am... as i recalled i was excited when i finally reached 21 and was happily counting up 17,18,19,20,21! the magic 21! but rite after, when i started working, i realised that 22, 23 and 24 is coming rite up in the next few days seems scary... i noe how my mum feels.... and really i'm not exactly keen to keep track of my age. no wonder, women say that age is a secret, i believe that somehow it comes to the point where when someone asks abt their age, they had to minus of from their birthdate to give the correct answer! so they mite as well save this trouble... lol, and i'm beginning to do that! OMG >.<

rite, shall end now, before i become all so complainy about getting older....

freedom is mine, again!

haha, yepz, my parents are away in china for 9 days, so the house is mine... muahaha.. and also been religiously finding ways to exercise be it climbing up stairs at mrt stations wherever possible, walking extra bit longer... lol
but it feels really good, after sweating it out! it definitely has something to do with hormones heheh ;)

abt work, going down to a customer place with a senior helps me to learn better, esp when he's patient and will explain to me if i have any queries. best of all, i can learn how to interact better with my customers. my senior's really good!

and later i'm going down to another customer's place alone.. hoping to be able to practise on wat ive learnt and plus recently been PMS-sy, really wishing i can be as patient as i can be... she's an auntie afterall.... oh welllllll....

:|

yeah, im on a diet

ive been on a diet for about a few weeks, tryin to make a point to exercise everyday. of course it is good that ive committed to a goal of losing to 50kg. now i think ive lost ard 1kg or so. its tough, but at least i noe i'm now a lil' healthier than before rather than the eat, sit and sleep routine.

today i hope to lose another 500g or 1kg if possible. :)

ive put on some weight

yupz, have put on some weight since i came back from port dickson... and tonite's my mum's bdae dinner which is most likely gonna be..... a buffet!!
the thing abt buffets is that one is most likely to overeat, and since i'm uber greedy for food, u noe wat that means... but tonite, i will try to be more disciplined.... to eat less cakes and more fruits....

been so busy i feel sick....

yes, i haven been in here for some time. apparently when one gets busy, one seems carried away by the current of wanting to finish and satisfy customers.
till now i have faced numerous customers, those that are downright irritating as they call you to no end, customers that demand alot from you, customers that are unhappy with the system and wants you to do something about it.
gosh, ive been so stressed that i'm even entertaining thoughts of quitting. wj says my job is not suited for me.... i think... mayb so.... since i cant quite manage customers all that well... but.... i'm also learning.... and boy it is hard. there are times when i'm totally down and out and the only way seems to tell wj about it and then cry it out. at times i wish, there were more seniors i could ask, if not for my slow learning process..
i'm again starting to feel my throat getting itchy. its a sign of sore throat coming... sheesh! and yet a few months back i just nursed a sore throat for 2 weeks... now.... it seems like my body is again protesting about the stress level.
i haven been able to relax fully in a long long time....
i haven also been managing my expectations.... mayb wat wj say is rite... i'm a person with high esteem but ultra low confidence... with the balance of both, i probably wouldn be caught in this stressful state....
sigh....
drink loads water....