Thursday, January 16, 2014

managing emotional turmoil, especially anger and annoyance

Yes as this post suggest, i'm facing an emotional turmoil with anger and annoyance. i don't know if its due to me growing older and getting more easily angry/annoyed? or the fact that my source is close to me, closer to me than before marriage (like duh... you see ur husband/wife everyday) In the past, I was able to ignore him or "scold" him via messages when i'm home, i can also sleep over it and the next morning i would feel so much better, all without his physical presence... Now after marrying my other half, i'm finding it so much harder... i have to ignore him and/or "scold" him face to face, and my anger/annoyance the next morning will still be there, and the cycle begins... this morning he says i'm playing the 'girl' game and plans to ignore me, i was downright upset and left the house to figure about things... thats when it hit me.... welcome to the world of married-hood! Now what would be the best solution when such scenario arises? its not possible to not see him until the next morning unless i flee back to my home and i couldn possibly do that as its tantamount to lead to divorce in the long run... I am caught in this crappy situation with the hope of voicing out on this platform and feeling better after that. I cant exactly communicate this face-to-face to my other half without breaking into tears, and he will think i'm using it as some kind of (blackmail? girl game?)or being "princessy" or whatever, basically my tears/crying give me strength to explain my emotional troubles as i can "blare" out all my frustrations (mostly incoherently) at least thats what i think...maybe i'm wrong..? O...K.... after typing it all out into sentences i'm feeling much much much better and also i'm not physically near my source. i can seek comfort in that, until tonight