自己是怎样的一个人？

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有时候我好像一个飘浮的船， 漫无目的的。。。
开心或不开心，可能自己也不知道。
有时我选择掩饰自己的真感情，
因为我是怪胎，我不知道要感觉怎样。。。
所以看人家笑，我也会微微一笑。
真的觉得好笑的时候，其他人不笑，只有我笑哈哈。
人家跟我说话，我只会点头，不懂怎样回答。
所以很难和其他人做朋友，交换心事。。。

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not a red acer.... but....red MSI!

haha, ended up here and there as my dad hunted for the best bargains in terms of speed, brand and price... i ended up not with acer aspire one as i thought sure i was getting... but he got a better deal, a MSI U123, with 2 gb ram already and cheap!

karen said it was lighter, i'm nt sure whether i agree to that, cos i haven tried to weigh hers LOL!
anyways i'm immensely happy with it, except for the fact that i keep forgetting it does not have a cd drive :D is super lay chey if need to install any cd related stuff...
having said that, i feel good using the keypad, doesn feel that faraway from my lenovo lappie in exchange for this... worth it hehehe

abt the image, but i blame the societal trends

yea, my image is hardly the kind that impresses... ive got like pimples and freckles and my dress sense can be much improved upon, having said that, i blame societal trends that in certain jobs, u need to create a "professional" image in order to do well in... for instance u need to dress formally for product demos or for meeting with the clients and training them...

make them have good impression of u and ur product... is like saying u are ur product..

like u have to be serious cos u're selling a accounting software or stuff like that... this can be silly, i mean it can also further the stereotype that accounting is serious and boring...

anyways, its abt ppl's impressions, and why ppl's impressions?? it starts from their likes and dislikes, whether they are comfortable with ur looks or watever...

they used to say that fat is beautiful, now it has become fat is disgusting and not respecting ur body... watever it is.... its just a fact of life that trends and ppl's thinking abt u has taken such a centre stage... rumours here and there abt ur quirky dressing or behaviour etc... sigh! feels really... i dunno wat to say...

anyways, we dun live as hermits, if only we do, the place would have been more peaceful....

tues clarke quay dinner (food festival)

these two pics were taken just b4 we went to have dinner. first time that i intro wj to nancy and karen :D

we ate the most memorable ondeh ondeh which the gula melaka just burst in the mouth when u bite into it... and the durian paste (bengat, i think!) really good since it was done by swissotel merchant court! haha!

the babi ponteh that nancy bought was nice too, especially eaten with sambal belacan, first heard of this dish while watching little nonya and then i wondered how it tasted like?! LOL so now i noe, mmmm.....

my red acer A0D250!

yea, i was hoping my dad will get the acer A0D250 for me! God answered my prayer and now, i have to wait patiently for next week to come... haha, the stock will only come in middle of next week, to which i hope it wouldn be delayed... :D below is wat i'm eagerly waiting for! Swwwweettttttt!

image from http://www.notebookcheck.net/Newsentry.153+M5c8d9324471.0.htmlthen i can start having some fun, surfing the net (streaming my videos!) and playing simple pc games lik plants vs zombies (need to get from wj)
yeeha!

and... this morning i saw two 小小强dead on my table...the packet of exterminating seeds are useful, not only for ants! haha...oh well.... this shows how dirty our tables are only, karen's table is clean cos she wipes it down everyday LOL

小强的出现！

哎哟，今天auntie说她看到我桌上有三只小强！她用吸尘器把它们给吸走。。。还好我还没上班，不然一定大叫救命！咳！只怪我平时太贪吃，然后又不打扫，所以好像把小强们都叫过来似的。。。
是的，我决定少吃，而且要打扫桌子一翻。。。。 顺便减肥！！
小强！不要再来了！

sat dinner with the girls..then after the boys.. ha!

yupz, sat(18th jul) i had a fun filled day... went to eat jap ramen with huay and co (which i cant remember the restaurant name except that its at the basement of raffles shopping centre) and then went to play bowling, oh boy, huay and shell were quite good and da ge had the best pose! LOL, M also tried to follow da ge's style which resulted in a very niang pose.... we had a very good laugh at him!
i cheated and got a strike,muahaha! or rather the machine was screwed up... anyways, overall i like bowling! my hand wasn as aching as the first time i played, mayb becos i'm plumper now and have more energy?! haha!
after that (-huay), we went to billy bombers to eat the choc fondue, the choc was good! shell suggested making choc fondue then we pay her, lol, then rong said that she has the fondue equipment at home, thats when we thought next time we really could have a fondue party!!! :D

after bading farewell to the girls, i went to meet with wj... as usual he was playing ball and then after we had dinner together with his mates... went to ichiban sushi at parkway... had some conversation with his pals, and thoroughly enjoyed the company... toked abt eating habits to lose weight and stuff... in fact i think i'm more comfortable with the boys... strangely enuf, since i've been quite socially awkward ard them... but i guess in a group and esp with wj there, it was reassuring and comfortable... also i guess its the similarity btw me and the guys, they are straight talkers, same as me.... but if i were to tok to huay and co, i have to be more careful abt their feelings for example.... in other words, girls are complicated and read too much into details... they may also intepret the wrong signals, even though u meant it as a joke...

but having typed all this, all in all, my sat was really a good day!!! :)

another dinner at sh's place (steamboat!) but before....

afternoon~ purposefully skipped lunch cos i knew nancy ordered pizzas fr her bdae celebration...only had two fruits and some chicken.. and karen and co bought a choco-blueberry cake! we had lots of picture taking and laughter (duh!) *check to see if there's any photos uploaded.. HAHA!

and for dinner~ another great dinner at sh's place! had steamboat, and the highlight was xiao hei's perfectly cut streaky pork(many plates of it!) also the star shaped and girly faces of the fishcakes left quite a amusing impression on me! LOL... apparently they taste good also, different from the normal taste, had a more seaweedy taste that covered the fishy taste... haha!
after many rounds of throwing food in, the soup was fantabulously sweet and i drank several bowls of it! just when i tot about there already, wj's aunt brought out a basket of longans! i couldnt resist and ate quite some of it, and then again when i tot i'm finished, lo and behold, the chocolate cheesecake was brought out! it was great i tell u!! apparently i ate from his other aunt's plate cos i mistook it for my own.. wj's fault for asking me to fill his water cup... LOL.. suddenly it looked like i was very greedy and leaving my marks ard.. :D
i played with joshua, the cat that looks just like real life garfield, and again entertained everyone with my silly letout :))

sailing ard the world....

oh how i wish i could be like this kid who sailed ard the world in a year! his perspectives/outlook in life must be different from most kids his age, and he must have been really independent and a thinker, to be able to adapt to the navigation of the high seas :)

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090717/tts-yachting-usa-record-youth-c1b2fc3.html

blue beach dress

today i wore the blue beach dress that wj bought for me :) nancy and karen said i looked good in it, lol! quite funny for me since i nvr wore a dress when i outgrew the kid stage... i feel kind of airy around my stomach area and a lil insecure... it just needs getting used to hehe!

*cat call from cherry who just came in, and she says "hey, u're wearing a dress, should wear more!"

my poor lips

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dry stretchy feeling
the expansion of the lips
looking so much like 2 sausages
pain, but not quite there
sensitive to touch,
what shall i do?
lip balm lip gloss??
ah... sigh..
hate those sticky things...
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my poor lips are probably screaming to me to stop washing my face.. but there's no choice.. so... i need a lip balm!!!

all abt my zit

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red, bumpy to the touch,
fluid-filled swelling, an irritant
mars the rest,
of my beautiful face,
or wats left of it.
the zit, simply put.
the zit that puts me off,
that pushes me to squeeze
but all efforts unsuccessful.
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my little zit prose-turned-poem :D

another nice dinner with good company! @beach rd

yepz, another week with wj and his cuz :) enjoyed their company, esp sh's hearty laughter at wj's joking abt me and sw's indian accent "howda?" and my accent "yipu" haha! one accidental letout in KL which resulted in a entertaining joke.. lol! but i kinda like to entertain ppl ard me, so i wouldn mind seeming a lil (or alot!) silly, makes me feel happy! hehe...
anyways, we went to watch i love u man, and i liked the show, made me laugh like hell, haha! (nvrmind wj doesn like it) its one of the few non-animation shows that make me laugh that much.. muahhaha!
after which we proceeded to beach rd hawker centre to eat a early dinner. the food was as usual good (or bad considering the superbly high cholesterol!), i thoroughly enjoyed the fried kway teow, hokkien mee, orh luat, mutton soup and the avocado shake that sh ordered!
and i mite add the avocado shake tasted like 1 part green bean 99 parts coconut milk! (lol, the forensic heroes joke, nice!!! wj was rite when he said he heard me slurping away happily in the car ;D)
all these possible cos of sh and sw who noes all the good food, hehe! 3 cheers for them!! :))

skimming through dramas

yupz, today i'm online to skim through some dramas... was looking at dramas from korea, taiwan and japan.... and japan has the shortest number of episodes... no wonder my cuz doesn like to watch any other dramas-short, sweet and to the point! lol :)
i saw this one drama that kind of intrigued me, its called the quiz season 2. Its a psychological story and i think i will like it... hmmm... mayb i'll start watching after i finish boys over flowers... haha! :D
the liar game that wj intro to me also seems interesting since it belongs to the same kind of genre, mayb these 2 dramas will be my top priority later, muahahha!

dreamy vacation spot - bora bora

this morn while i was on my way to work, i heard the radio mentioning a nice place to vacation which is the bora bora island! the DJ said something abt nice beaches and a bungalow which is just above the water, so u can jump out of ur house with a splash literally! so cool!

this is just one of the images i saw when i went to google abt it, apparently it is the best tourist spot for beaches (or so one of the websites mentioned...not sure how true, but judging from the pic, its really nice!!)

its right next to pacific ocean (or on it, i'm nt so sure, cos i briefly skimmed through). i was more mesmerised by the images i saw, such pristine, untouched waters good for snorkeling or diving (i dun do either sports...), a really clear see through! i can just imagine the clarity of the marine life teeming in it.. i wish i could be there... either on honeymoon or just a holiday... haha ;D

pic taken from www.weddings-abroad.com/borabora.htm

the fun element

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who's to say i'm nt having fun on my own?
wat are the consequences?
wat are the chances?
the chances of being there and having alot more fun?
now that is nt the case
when i'm there, nothing much happens,
when i'm nt, there seems to be more on-the-fly activities.
there seems to be this inexplicable force of my absence.
like something doesn wan me to have extreme fun.
mayb, just mayb i can beat this force.
to have someone beside me doing stuff i like
while he does not and he cant say no.
he always say take the chance,
so i'll take that chance.
the chance to make him do reluctant things, which he does with his frens
it's called peer pressure.
but for me, i will make it couple pressure.

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overly sensitive ppl, which also includes me...

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some ppl cant take jokes, and may misunderstand, others just plainly misinterpret, but i shant say much cos i do that sometimes, misunderstanding wat ppl tell me, especially from my loved ones... anyways, ya, i was kind of feeling that something was wrong... and mayb i'm reading too much into things... bt the way she asked me made me feel like ive done something really wrong, when all i did was trying to make some conversation topic...

mayb i should just leave it at here... just to say that there are many more sensitive things going around, if u want to take it to heart and be over sensitive, then u risk losing ur frens to misunderstandings/arguments. nuf said...
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first impressions

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first impressions,
most are wrong
ppl still believe in that,
unfortunately.
communication's as complicated as it gets
especially the one who speaks
and the person who receives and then responds
perceptions are but a surface thing,
u can mean one thing, while feeling another,
but no one can understand, cos they perceive u
to be like this and like that
u noe u're not haughty,
but ppl say u do just because u dun speak to them
u're probably shy and shivering with fear,
feeling self conscious, self-absorbed
that u'd rather remain silent.
shut off from this somewat cruel world
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KL trip

really!! it was fun-tastic!!! i ate so much (overeat i mean) and shopped somewhat. the only thing i didn try was the foot massage, i cant stand my feet being touched, i think i can bring the whole massage place down by my laughter or screaming... HAHA!
so me and wj just went bac to the room and slept... the bed was awesomely nice to sleep on, with the aircon and the soft bedsheets, it was really warm and cosy feeling... both of us knew wat kind of bed we want in the future! lol

of course there were some things i saw on the KL trip which kinda 'opened my eyes' to the world.. (u read abt tat kind of thing in news articles, bt seeing it happen to u, is just plain ....) things like paying ur way through to speed up on certain things.. and the traffic there was atrocious! we were like caught in a jam that lasted like close to an hour just round the corner to our hotel... *faints

but disregarding the episodes, it was definitely a trip to remember! so much laughter(mainly me actually, cos wj said i laughed the loudest, but seriously, its damn funny!!!) because of the truth or dare stuff... LOL (it had me trying to floop like a fish, and i tried... i really did!)

and i also had a first taste of heineken, and i'm nt a fan, i prefer tiger beer, but then again, i dun like beers or any liquor.. it was comparing which has the worser taste... ;D

thinking bac on the food we ate: the really good black hokkien mee, BBQ chicken wings, BBQ stingray, some pork ribs or pork chop dish, kang kong, the char siew, the claypot bee ta mak, coffee pork ribs (i think), fried kailan, the longan drink we had after some squeezing at chinatown, KFC chicken meal, wonton mee (if have that kind of chili would be so nice!)
*mmm.... oh and i almost forgot!!!! the wonderful banana choc cake with vanilla icecream scoop on top!!!!

excited!

本小姐明天去KL 啦！今天晚上在朋友家过夜，不知道会不会睡觉! haha! so looking forward to all the food! *mmmm....